キララ　の　世界 | Kirara No Sekai | Kirara's World

MOVED

2009-02-09T01:33:00.002+08:00

good riddance!!!

lol

new bloggie @ http://www.kirara--noyume.blogspot.com/ haha

06`02`09 - Picture Post!!!

2009-02-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

Picture post of whatever tt has been going on in my life.. LOL lazy to write dates haha

beautiful cousins and ugly me LOL sigh~
taken during CNY mew~

NIU LAPPY FER NIU YEAR PLOX =D

hope u aint got nothing against vaio

light comes out from under the lappy if u pat it XD

idk how it happened... it bruised up o.o" found it odd so took and pic >.< [and also to send zich for his further analysis]

first ever done bento in a bento box lol

Comics Connection PP with... O.O" omg cant rmb... putri? LOL scroll the pic from right to left. [yes it's sick LOL]

old pencil box LOL

new pencil box LOL

kawaii kitty print & emboridery

new & old plox XD

Tim: *medidate*
Yuchi: I VOLUNTEER TO DISTRACT TIM FROM MEDITATION!!!

Yuchi: *Dance dance*
Tim: nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn... *concentrate concentrate*

what tim was meditating for ^w^

my b'day prezzie from eeteuk <3

konata painting plox

written card ^w^

05`02`09

2009-02-05T23:57:00.004+08:00

i realised...
you cant afford to be kind in love...

i realised...
if you dont feel that way for this person, you just dont.
dont force yourself to change your feelings for him.
dont force yourself to change into something he likes.
dont force yourself to change your preferences for him.

it's just... wrong...

that's why... probably...
to end his pain...?

or maybe... he wasn't in pain at all in the first place... but i was...
but im scared that if we continued on further, it would cause you very much pain...

...
gaah what am i saying...

...

i guess... i just have to do a major reality check...
i know that being with him... was just more of a "omg you so poor thing... nvm... come i give you comfort" kind of relationship... >.< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you... gaaah...

you are trouble... >_< you brought me into some pretty odd situations...

but...
somehow...
i have fallen helplesslly and uncontrollably for you.
why...? i dont even know...

what is it that you have that the rest of them doesnt?
what is it that you have sets you apart from them?

i dont even know what i'm talking abt here...

this would be interesting, i guess...

2 clingy people.

2 self sacrificing people.

2 loving people.

2 caring souls.

would it work out?

or rather...

is it possible for such a combination to take place?

山元＊キララ

03`01`09

2009-02-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

woke up 4.30am...
wanted 2 go sch... but fell asleep... woke up later...

mom pissed at me... for wasting electricity... and for wanting 2 pon sch [cuz when i woke up again i had this horrible splitting headache]

...
in an attempt to 'wake me up again' [get me off the bed] she threw numerous amounts of hardware objects at me... one of which was my handphone...

why did i recognise it as my handphone? because she took it away to be confiscated later... pffft...

sigh...
dont like sch anymore...
but if i dont go, i have to fucking get beaten up...
throwing, kicking, punching...

heck, even my lappie kena thrown before...
[yes, my new lappy... kena throw... and im afraid cuz of tt the WLAN is not gonna work anymore...]

...
Go figure, mom.
I hope the bruises will fade soon...

What's the use of filial piety when that which you respect
has no respect for your mental & physical welfare?

27`01`09

2009-01-27T15:56:00.003+08:00

break up.
that's the best thing, i guess..?

for you...

i dont want to hurt you any more than i am already.
it doesnt just hurt YOU.
it hurts ME as well.

...
might as well just end it once and for all...

i missed naifu-sama...
but knife is not naifu-sama...
knife is sharp and pointy... it cuts you...

and it's painful...
not just to be seared into pieces by you... but also to watch you in pain...

but now...
the pain...
it's charging at me full force...

...
ouch...

so that's how it feels...
this mixture between relief and pain when you let someone go...
instead of being the one let go of...

i wished i never had to let go of you...
but i had to...

"i love you..."

"i loved you too."

sigh...

i miss the master-pet relationship...
can we revert to the past?

is it possible?
is it possible for me to hold you in my arms again, and not feel pain?

01`11`09~27`01`09

"A Knife.
The closer you put him to your heart,
the deeper it cuts you."

26`01`09

2009-01-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

its 3.33am now. lol. wtf...
today... ytd... total earned... $100+ + $200+? idk... lol... didnt count...

sigh...
recent events...

"do you know how much i LOVED you?"

mew~

been kinda emo?
nyaaa~

"sometimes,

i just wish that you were there."

hmm~
i rmb...

"but you weren't there."

being at home... lying around the bed... emoing... wondering...

"i wish you were here"

gosh...

"did you really love me?"

sometimes...
it's hard to go on, isnt it...?

"i know i cant be there all the time
that disqualifies my right to complain"

when i'm here... by myself...
and you... somewhere else...

"but you,
whilst on the computer,
enjoying your games"

somehow... eventually... we distanced...
and i suddenly feel like the feelings i felt for you once
was no more.

"and you,
dozing off in the lazy heat of the afternoon
napping in the beautiful moonlight's grace"

somehow...
things change...

"of course, doing the things you love.
of course..."

and i no longer find it easy to talk to you...
because i have to find a time
whereby i would not disturb your daily activities...

"while i sit alone in my room"

i wish...
you were there more often...

"countless tears that have flowed down my cheeks
as i let out millions of silent screams in accompaniment."

so that i would not walk away

"i prayed that i would not break down"

walk away to find someone else

"i prayed that i would not stray away"

walk away somehow into the arms of others

"i prayed that i would not
break apart the chains
that held back my heart"

somehow, my heart walked away with me.

"somehow... the chains simply fell off."

i wish it didnt.
i wish i still loved you.

"a part of me wanted to stay
a part of me didnt want to let go
a part of me still misses you."

heck, i STILL love you, of course i do.
but...
how much sand is left in the hourglass, my dear?

"but another part of me...
it was scared of you.
it didnt want you anywhere near me...
it wanted someone else"

how much more do i still hold for you?

"i tried so hard to hold the other side in
but...
who was the one
who lend me that shoulder to cry on
when i was at my weakest?"

that part of me that always prevented me
from doing things i shouldnt.
from straying away from that which makes me
yours.

"how can i continue to hurt both of you so openly
when i know
that you know
that i know?"

i loved you.
i've always did...
...
if only... if only...

25`01`09 - Rihanna - Unfaithful

2009-01-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

Rihanna - Unfaithful

Rihanna - Unfaithful
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

Hes more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

23`01`09

2009-01-23T22:16:00.003+08:00

wtf...
today is the first in many days where i get angry... and its the 1st in a LONG time where i got pissed at someone FOR REAL.

and worse, it's not just once. -.-"

1. morning. chinese new yr celebrations thingy at school... sandy, idk wad ur frigging problem was today. for one, u can pat my head. but i HATE it when people ruffle my hair when i TIE IT UP. u wan, ruffle it when i let it down, damn it. if not, just pat. -.-"

2. ur frigging sister. she messed up the hair AND TORN OFF SOME OF MY HAIR. KEEP AN EYE ON UR FRIGGING SISTER. I DIDNT REBOND MY HAIR SO THAT YOU CAN TEAR IT OFF, DAMN IT.

2. after that, i went wif divika for a bit of talking at lucky bread... nommed an ice cream and a corn dog [wif mayo... so it looked odd... o.o" shouldnt have sprayed mayo i guess...] and treated her 2 lunch... later i had to leave her at the bustop so she could go home and i went back to tk to change...

3. met sandy at sch gate after changing... UNTIED MY HAIR. yay me. walked to tkp with her.

ok, 1st things first, i DO NOT LIKE tkp. I DO NOT even WANT TO BE THERE. the only reason i actually BOTHER to go there is BECAUSE YOU ARE MY FRIENDS and i feel that it's nice to KEEP YOU COMPANY. if you dont APPRECIATE IT, then i wont go there. k?

4. YOU FRIGGING SIS MESSED MY HAIR AGAIN. AGAIN! and thats when i started getting pissed. and putri went wif me to parkway and on the way i simmered down.

5. kanda smsed me abt some stuff. so fine, stuff, i'll reply. and it's some disturbing emo stuff, so having a good nature and all, i replied.

6. putri had to go home later at around 1 so i led her to the exit of parkway and i went to read a book at borders... abt some japanese warrior thingy...

7. nearly falling asleep, shimin called and told me she came. so yay me. i went to find her, so we walked around, did random stuff, and then went to take MY LATE LUNCH and HER EARLY LUNCH at around... 2... lol...

8. started discussing abt religion... somehow, putri and shimin have some negative views abt sandy as well.

well, sandy, we noe u are nice to everyone. or rather, you LIKE TO BE nice to everyone. but u're doing it wrong. when people come to you COMPLAINING abt being tired or whatever problems he or she has, YOU DO NOT START A DEBATE WITH HIM/HER!!! -.-" sigh... >.<>.<

sighh.... ok, yes, sandy, of course i love you. but there are some things i just have to voice out sometimes...

9. after the talking and everything i was suddenly 3.30pm... and as me and shimin were leaving banquet, tenma smsed me lol

10. so after that, shimin and i took bus 15 she got off at her home and then later i was really tired and sleepy, so i overshot the bustop cuz i fell asleep. i had to WALK back to the mrt station... and then i got really pissed wif myself...

11. at the mrt station... i got there just in time. just in time to miss the mrt. wtf.

12. reached city hall mrt station at 4.25...? yay~ but then tenma was late... well he said he wld be late... by 20mins...? lol? so that would be... 4.45, yeap...? so i sat at the staircase and fell asleep... kena woken up time to time and then later at 5pm he called and oh wow... u're here... stoned a while at the staircase cuz i my ass was numb and he had a leg cramp...? LOL!!!

13. went to penninsula...? [wait, how do u spell that place's name??? O.O"] but the magic shop was closed for the day... >.<

14. went to walk around... walk walk walk... mew~ then he kept irritating me by putting the bottle of crysantanyum tea on my head and calling me a retard...

1. i do not like people putting things on my head.
2. do NOT ruffle up my hair such that i get hair tangled up.
3. i hate being called a retard. YOU, CHRIS, IF YOU'RE READING MY BLOG NOW, REMEMBER THIS LINE. I DO NOT FUCKING LIKE BEING CALLED A RETARD.

15. i was surpressing the anger i had for the entire day, and eventually, and im sorry i did, i blew up. and tenma was at the receiving end.

for one, teasing, making fun of, doing stupid things... im not fond of that. because i just dont like being bullied. it just pisses me so damn much back in primary sch that whenever someone tried to do sth to me that i didnt like, i would just flail my claws at him without any care what-so-ever.

and at first i was trying very hard NOT to whack him. and eventually, i had to whack him here and there and poke him to remind him, no, i dun like this. but no, he didnt get it. so in the end i was so dang irritated and i even developed a headache cuz of this... sigh...

yes, should have gone home, shouldnt i? sigh...

anw, to those whom i've mentioned names earlier in this post, SORRY, but i need to let out.
yes, it was necessary to publish this post. writing it in a diary doesnt work.

and i got so pissed, i cant even sleep when i got home. so here i am, 11pm, typing away on lappy because i CANT SLEEP. rwar!!!!

T______T

sigh...
and, for the record, i dont ruffle people's hair. i pat. but for sandy's case, because your hair is like a spring, it DOESNT tangle, it frigging springs back after anything, EVEN ROCKS.

so there you go.

PLEASE, DONT DEBATE WITH ME ON ANY SUBJECT. IM SICK AND TIRED. VERY VERY TIRED.

...

sigh... sleep time now... baibai... *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

P.S. when i was 1/2 sleep i think i saw jasmine and sihui and 2 others going to marina square...

crying

2009-01-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

crying doesnt solve anything, but it makes u feel a hell lot better.

o rly?

bullshit.

20`01`09

2009-01-20T15:09:00.003+08:00

morning. cried. tears. non stop.

i cant take it anymore.

1. spending hours just on one thing trying to understand it when it makes no sense at all.
i dun even get it. mathematics is abt numbers. why the hell are there even alphabets???

2. one thing i have very strongly is a sense of responsibility. and when i dont fulfil this responsibility, i break down. i blame myself. this sinks deeply into my heart and its hard to get over this. rwar. I DONT WANT THIS SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITY. I WANT OUT. OUT!!! i dont wanna take charge, i dont wanna be responsible for anyone!!! and i dont wanna be in band!!!

3. i guess what really brings me down is that i dun like to trouble people. it makes me feel bad. guilt. and with the added sense of guilt from the responsibility, its x2 the effect. i dont mind if people come to me sad or pissed, looking for some kindness in return. in fact, im more than happy to help them. and deep inside, i noe tt they are willing to listen too. but, heck, i just cant bring myself to trouble them. and if i ever do open up to someone, i takes alot of gut and all just to make me share my troubles. and whats worse? those that try so hard to help me end up gettign frustrated and pissed and dun talk to me anymore.

so... sometimes, i guess, the only way i can release myself is through here.
i trouble myself, typing this out.
i dont expect anyone to reply. seriously, i just wanna voice out and release this.

...
ahh yes.
i didnt go 2 sch today.
because i was crying so badly. i cant take this anymore.
all this negativity that was building up within me.

heck, nobody understands.

mom? she just thinks i wanna stay at home to finish my homework.

but hell, i dun even UNDERSTAND it.

"its every man for himself."

yes, it is.
...

i've always been alone. alone in my own little world of... me, myself, and i.

i wanted to open up. its always what i wanted. but why cant i? is this really sth that i can never rid myself of?

...
i need help, but where do i start? who can i seek?

...
and u. im scared of looking for u to comfort me.
with every time i open up to u, i just get more vulnerable to ur words.
it scares me, how weak i am to u.
and u're not helping with that. i wish you would, but then again, i wish you wouldnt.

yes, i'm messed up. really messed up.
and there aint no god or deity to come save me.

just me, myself, and i.

"stop crying, you idiot.
stop fucking crying."

19`01`09

2009-01-19T23:56:00.002+08:00

19.01.09...

nice number rite... can go buy 4D liao...

...

today was not a nice day...

i kind of resented going to school, even thou going to school put my mind off things...

...

yes, i got a new lappy. yay me...
so with this newly equipped power of speed [4gb ram plox] i can now type blogposts as regularly as i want...

thou i cant guarantee a post daily, but i'll try as much as i can...

now today... a pressing matter...

...
sometimes, when my friends come to me sad/pissed and everything... it makes me feel sad...
not sad at them. but sad for them.

i dont like it when people bully my friends.
these friends are people whom i hold close to my heart.
no matter how far apart we are, u hold a place in my heart, and a significant one at that.

so when i saw that blog post today, i was devastated...

most likely u're never gonna read this post, but im gonna say it anyway.

dont let her make u feel bad.
if u cant bear being near her, remove yourself from her presence.
it may be hard, it may be painful. but do so you must.
if tearing your heart from all that pulling away is gonna be the result, so be it.
it will grow back eventually.
not whole, not fully perfect, but it will grow back nevertheless.
thats how i learn, the hard way.

of course, now that i have him, its much easier. rite? RITE?

no, its not.

being classmates with this silly boy is not exactly a good thing. being classmates with THIS silly and TALKATIVE boy is really not easy.

yes, shouldnt have tried in the 1st place, but now that it happened, and that it ended, i shld try to recover, shouldnt i?

YOU! RECOVER TOO!!!
>.< it takes time. heck, of course it takes time. unless some people, we arent those that can break up and fall for another in a week. no, of course not. if u can do it, then GJ to u.
u are made of winz.

but sorry, imma made of phailz.

NORMAL PEOPLE, plox, take time. and the longer it takes, the more you heal. no, wait, sorry, THE MORE TIME YOU TAKE FACING THE PROBLEM, and the more you will heal.

serious.

perhaps, for some, if you nip the problem in the bud, you will solve the problem.
but, for others, it may take years of throwing the boomberang away (and locking it up in a box eventually when you realise that boomberangs come back no matter what... unless u're a hella bad thrower...) and eventually the emotions tied to the memories fade as the memories fade away.

good luck, my friend. you will survive. be strong. *hugs*

"Sorry.
I just dont dare.
I'm scared.
Perhaps this fear of being scolded
is just too great for me to bear.
...
i shall look forward to seeing you again.
i need to tell it to you face to face.
...
perhaps,
that's the only way to solve this.
...
And,
before i go...

I love you."

18`01`09

2009-01-18T23:16:00.000+08:00

yes. im a weakling. i cry too easily.

perhaps it's because i dont like being scolded.

my fear of not being able to live up to expectations...

this dissapointment. this... horrible sinking feeling that sets deep within my heart and causes this horrible feeling bubbling from deep within my gut.

help me. help me rid this... fear.

where were you when i needed you the most?
where were you when i sought so hard for you?

15`01`09

2009-01-15T17:49:00.006+08:00

taking a break from school from today till sunday i guess...

ytd i went to sch... mrs tan (?) saw me in the corridoor (prolly walking like a dead zombie o.o") and told me to go see doctor... TONIGHT.

sigh...
true, true...

my illness has been there for quite some time... but in the past 2 days it has escalated at an exponential rate...

i could still run...
like how i was the 2nd girl [i think] to finish the 1.2km practice run during P.E.
[which reminds me... mr rizal isnt tt bad afterall... he let us run 3 rounds around tech block, next lesson 3 rounds around sch field... then ytd? 3 rounds around school... which is 2.4km divided by 2...

anw, 1st things 1st.

Happy New Year
Happy B'day Tenma!
Happy b'day willie! (oops abt ur notes =X )

cant rly rmb anyone elses' currently... head dizzy and fuzzy now...

oh, and by the way. im nomming fish porridge as i type this post...
if not i will fall asleep again T.T

oh where was i...
ahh rite... ytd...

ms lian let me sleep in class on wednesday...
cuz i was really not feeling well...
T.T

oh... went to NND dance yesterday...
didnt really dance actually... i just went there to rest...
...

and ask sum ppl to help me with amaths =X
apparently alu is amaths pro... =X

and for the trigo qtns... some keep insisting "YOU NEED A CALCULATOR FOR THIS!!!"
before i eventually had to highlight the part that says "...without using a calculator..."

lol...
i went home early after tt..
can eat dinner with them cuz my $$$ got stolen during Da Vinci house meeting... so yeah, im certain a DVian stole my moolah. T_T

sigh...
oh well...
Sparten treated me to a bottle of PREMIUM MILK TEA. =DDDDD

*~HAPPY HAPPY~*

the beverage i ❤ most in this word... is milk...
if i cant have milk, i wld ❤ to have sum milk tea =D

so yeah. thanks sparten!
u deserve a mega mac! [lol]

hmmm~
on monday i did sth nice lol?
i went to buy this ezlink card sticker of Kaname and Zero being yaoi XD
for who? for aka =D

lol...
i like to dote on my jrs...
or rather, i like to dote on the people around me that i love...

thats why im very tolerant of the things that people do to me... thou if i accidentally do sth wrong they will get angry... >.<

hmm... just ytd, tenma and eeteuk were talking abt sth in 7-11...

"If you're too caring people will walk all over your head"

...
thats kinda true i guess...
maybe thats why they like to bully me >.<

but anw,
juz glad tt aka is happy XD

lol~

oh rite... ytd after nnd dance went wif momma to TM... eat dinner, after tt go to some clinic to get meds... so yeah. tt's where my 3 day mc came from...

3 day mc = thurs, fri & sat...
not very enjoyable 3 day break because i would be spending the days resting and doing homework...

and well... why am i blogging again?
yes, im blogging in case u think im too busy having fun playing and ponning sch...

=X
naaah~
i miss blogging plox...
so long since i typed a blog post...

oh yes, i juz rmb!!!
last wk i got myself a lappy ^ω^
well, it's for homework and stuff lah... dun get my wrong >.<
the old com is nuts.. left only a few hundred mb space left [no, i dun have 70gb of pr0nz in my com thanks]... so yeah... i had to get myself a lappy >.<

com is too slow to be able to do homework... it's not even fairly productive. T_T
sigh...

oh and 1 more thing~

FOR THE NEW YEAR!
I'VE GOT (so far)....

1 new bag... supposed to be $35 or sth but i haggled until $28 ^ω^
1 new pencil box... costed me around $3~5 i guess...
1 new lappy [for sch purposes... i swear im not gonna install anything i.e. games, onto my lappy unless it's for some sch use i.e. ProDesktop/Microsoft Office, etc]
a few new pens [that cost $1 lol!!!]
1 $50 note [for ez-link moolah]
$10 stolen
2 Vampire Knight ez-link card stickers <3 face="Arial">^ω^]

mew~

anw, i gotta go finish my homework now... =X
buaiz ppl~

and p.s. i love you. i love you all.

"If i should ever be faced with the prospect of seeing you leave,
I would rather have never met you at all in the first place."

28`12`08 - Quiz ❤ akasuke

2008-12-28T22:13:00.003+08:00

Tagged by Akasuke! (Syuhaidah ❤)

#1 The first person who tag in your blog is?
lol... idk leh... =X go search archives XD

#2 Your relationship with him/her?
umm...? ok bah... o.o"

#3 Your impression of him/her?
lol... nice lor... random... SHY [to strangers...? O.o"]

#4 The most memorable thing he/she had done for u?
hmm... i cant rmb... LOL!

#5 The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
"Saw u in canteen today... didnt dare to approach u..."

#6 If he/she become your lover you will
lol... i aint les wo...

#7 If he/she become you lover, thing he/she has to improve will be
go for sex change operation XD

#8 If he/she become your enemy, you will?
o.o" NUOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ GET BACK HERE!!!

#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
cuz i kept saying tt my jr is older than me...? =X

#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
hmm... get older than her...? LOL! jkjk~ oh come on... i can be her senpai FOR REAL that way XD

#11 Your overall impression of him/her is?
very nice! ahpek approves!

#12 How you think people around you feel about you
umm... LOL!!! u think leh? XD some think im weird, some think im ok, some think im... kawaii no neko-chan/manta? O.O" wakarimasen da.... >.<

#13 The characters that you love of yourself are
umm... o.o" not much really...

#14 On the the contrary, you hate of yourself are?
crazy... o.o" clumsy... cant make WONDERFUL nom noms like my pet can...

#15 The most ideal person you want to be is?
hmmm... i dont know... must have gd heart... looks arent important...

#16 For people that care and like you, say smth to them?
I LOVE YOU =DDDDDDDDDD *xoxo* XD

#17 Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.
Pass to people with blogs only.
1. Natalie ❤❤
2. Wei qing ❤❤
3. Knife ❤
4. Tenma ❤
5. Jasmine ❤
6. Boon Yee ❤
7. Syu Kun =D
8. Shi Chun =D
9. Eri ❤
10. Sparten :P

#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with?
Umm... kinda obvious, no?

#19 Is no.9 a male or female?
Girl. XD no no, im serious!!! XD

#20 If 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
^ω^ i guess so XD around same age

#21 What is no. 2 studying about?
Bio. XD

#22 When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
Umm... a few seconds ago...?

#23 What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
LOL jazz & classical! as well as death metal, etc etc etc~

#24 Does no. 1 has any siblings?
YEAH... *pats pats*

#25 Will you woo no. 3?
LOL why shld i woo my master? XD

#26 How abt no. 7?
umm... lostie is lost... XD

#27 Is no. 4 single?
umm... unfortunately, yes... T___T *hugs tenma*

#28 Whats the surname of no. 5?
twinkie winkie... dipsy... lala... POH!!! XD

#29 Whats the hobby of no. 10?
GUNDAM!!! lol just look at his blog skin XD

#30 Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
jasmine and eri.. lol... girls... can luh! XD

#31 Where is no. 2 studying at?
Compass Vale Sec sch!

#32 Talk something casually about no. 1
darkness will rule the world o.o"

#33 Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6?
LOL YES!! lol jkjk XD

#34 Where does no. 9 lives?
Umm... in a Barbie World =D

#35 What colour does no. 4 like?
black...? i dont know...

#36 Are no. 5 and 1 best friends?
they dunno each other...

#37 Does no. 1 have any pets?
i dun think so...

#38 Is no. 7 th sexiest person in the world?
LOL YES =D

#39 What is no. 6 doing now?
Doing sth... maybe singing? XD maybe homework? XD

End~ lol! XD cheers ppl! ❤❤❤ u dun NEED 2 do the quiz if u dont want to~ XD

26`12`08

2008-12-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

Happy b'day to me =DDD

oh, and merry belated xmas XD [yes yes, go make merry. XD ]

whee~

People who wished me happy b'day~

No	Time	MSN/SMS/IRL/ SGCafe	Person
1	00:00	M	Zich <3
2	00:00	SG	Elibioni / Eri/ Viro meimei XD hugs <33
3	00:00	M	Azzie mummy <3
4	00:00	M	Rashidah <3
5	00:01	M	Terence
6	00:02	M	Mijipon
7	00:03	M	Christopher (same b'day as me! Happy 20th B'day, marumotto-sama!)
8	00:00	SG	greenturtle =DDD
9	00:03	M	Tiggie [actually he said at 11:40... but then he said again later so yeah... haha]
11	00:03	SG	yoshi!!! =D <33 our beloved jason from friday the 13th [which is also my lucky day]
12	00:11	SG	Sparten!!! rwar!!!
12	00:15	M	Akasuke
13	00:16	M + S	Emily ^.^ Snowmaiden
15	00:20	SG	Tohru =D thanks!!!
16	00:22	SG	Xeths
17	00:24	M	Shaun XDDD
18	00:24	M	Lockie
19	00:35	SG	Violet <33
20	00:37	I	Mom XD
21	00:40	M	Knife ^.^
22	00:51	Facebook	Jielin
23	01:08	SG	AlucardX <3
24	01:11	SG	LIQING <333 YURI PARTNER!!!
25	01:25	SG	Kyo-
26	01:56	SG	xTsukiOkami
27	01:57	SG	hOrse
28	01:59	SG	TimCampy
29	02:24	SG	Kani-Chan
30	02:27	SG	XkosmoX <3 [thanks for the fangs =DD ]
31	07:50	SG	Setsuko! baka baka!!! XD hugs
32	08:23	S	Shi Chun <333
33	08:45	SG	Holypunisher! >_< dun punish me, it's my b'day lol!!!
34	08:46	S	Joyce =DDD
35	09:51	S	Vivian
36	10:25	S	Angerona / Sijia <33
37	11:16	Facebook	HuiMin XD
38	11:27	SG	kaiyyyy
39	11:34	SG	hooolahoop
40	12:25	I	Natalie <33333333
41	12:26	I	Amanda / Panda! XD
42	12:27	I	Weiqing <3333
43	12:38	SG	xXKuroiiXx <33
44	13:40	SG	Toyomi =D
45	14:46	SG	yuchi bunneh XD
46	15:06	SG	Hidit XD happy b'day 2 u 2!
47	15:11	S	Ah Pin [auntie] <3
48	18:50	S	Jet XD
49	20:27	SG	~pisces~ <33
50	21:52	M	Ozora / Vivo
51	22:01	M	Jasmine Poh XD
52	22:02	M	Sanzo / Mummy XD [haha thanks mum]
53	22:20	M	K0sm0s
54	22:56	I	Dad
55	23:09	SG	Eriol
56	23:25	SG	miniiicupcake
57	23:26	M	Erfi [yes, lol. XD ]

lol~

first time so many ppl wish me happy b'day HAHAHA~

today was great,anw~

went out wif Nat, WQ & Panda =DDD

sadly, mx couldnt come T___T

but anw~

met at clark quay at 12 [actually 12.30+++?] i was late... =X
so... yeah... >.<

went to central... liang court... atsuki gl... XD

made natalie try on LOLITA =DDD

lol pics? OF COURSE. BWAHAHAHA~ [yes, cuz it's my b'day XD ]

lol, not dumb enuff 2 add the 3rd pic... if not she'd kill me XD

haha, nat's pretty, no? XD

anw, the loli suits u ^w^
mew~

got a rose from nat & panda upon arrival XD

very nice, yeap?

favourite pic of the rose <333

was so afraid it would break halfway today >_< nya~~~

NAT & PANDA!!! THANK YOU!! AISHITERU YO!!! <333

but weiqing! i <3 you too =DDD

no worries!!! ^.^

hmmm~
after tt... went 2 kinokuniya...

then went to orchard road...

lol... went to watch movie... Twilight... haha~

oh yes... ate @ burger king till 4.30 before movier... our "Luner", i guess... [for me, it's Brunner again XD ]

the movie was great...

lol... the sparkle sparkle of edward was lol...

it's like...

FEAR ME!!! FEAR ME AND MY GLITTERY SPARKLEY SKIN OF MONSTROSITY!!! RWAR!!!

lol~

alice's voice was not high enough...

bella's voice was like a male MOST OF THE TIME. o.o"

sigh.... edward? omg dun even get my started on him! [actually i aleady started..... the glitter...]

lol~

after movie... went to say bye bye 2 panda @ takashimaya... [she's meeting cousin] then kino [again...] after nat got 2 visit her cd shop...

then sent wq off...

after tt went 2 haru and haru goth... as well as blood romance... XD saw my loli again XD whee~ *happy mood*

bought thigh high socks LOL!!

gomen gomen i need PROPER SOCKS! not the ones i bought... [complete waste of moolah... T___T ]

rwar! if u wanna gimmie b'day prezzie PLEASE gimmie some black thigh high socks with lacy top for my loli XD

ok!

so after haru/haru goth/blood romance... we headed home ^.^

hope ur mom didnt tick u off too badly, nat >.<

went home... reached around 9.30pm...

saw parasol kitty =DDD

and i saw a new black kitty... small kitty... >.< shall call him bruisey LOL

yes, bruisey not bruce lee. XD

and this brown one... hawkie? XD bwahaha im damn mean arent i? XD

kyaaaa~ kawaii na~ [cant get bruisey to be in same pic wif my rose XD]

iz blender kat! i blend into the handbag =DD

*rub rub* Kirara's jeans are nice 2 rub against...

i <3 grooming =DD *lick lick, lick lick*

ahhh.... so tired... RWAR ARE U TAKING MY PIC???!!!

KIRARA IS MY PET!!! SHOOO!!! [caption from zich o.o"]

oh yes, my xmas?

too tired from class chalet + h0rsey's xmas party... i slept from 24th dec nite till 25th dec 5pm O.O"

yes...

5PM.

*facepalm

at nite...

shaun's LOL:

LOL!!!

and remember kids!

PEDO BEAR'S ALWAYS WATCHING YOU!!! T___T

so yeah... for my b'day gift, i get this:

shall bear this seal until i am 16yrs old. haha~ 1 more year i guess? XD

P.S. Master, ganbatte ne!!! =DDD

22`12`08

2008-12-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

zzzzzzzzzzzz~

congrats 2 those who's

been spamming my

tagboard~u've eventually

PISSED ME OFF, so yay u.

so because of that, im

deleting everything that

u say.i dun care if u really

are owen or fake or

whatever, i just dont give

a damn. and yes, i dun

give a fuck abt the sch's

name. why? because of u

idiots.seriously, get a

life. in fact, get a life far

far away from me. yes,

do that.first things first,

if u just dun like me, dun

even bother visiting my

fucking blog, damnit.so

what if u got sth 2 say?

I DUN GIVE A DAMN

ANYMORE.

im not gonna waste more

time replying to ur idiot

messages.why? because

this has gotten out of hand.

sure sure, when erfi first

started spamming me years

back of course i replied. duh.

for the fun of it. but now it's

getting out of hand, so there.

damn, i dun give a shit abt

the name of the band NOR

the sch. it's not like i was

having sex with some bangla

man in a construction site

and got filmed down or

whatever.no, i didnt.

compared to OTHER people

in the sch, yes, they do

SHAMEFUL THINGS. i cant

even start with how the

things they do are. but

no, i wun mention. why?

because if i dont like them,

or like the things they do, i'll

just NOT BOTHER.

UR MOTHER NEVER TEACH U

HOW TO WRITE PEACE ARH?

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~

ok forget it.

u noe what?

seriously, you dont have to

do anything right now.

no, really.

OK! YOU SEE THAT SMALL

LITTLE RED BOX ON THE

RIGHT SIDE OF UR SCREEN?

YEAH, THE ONE WITH THE

"X" ON IT? YEAH? CLICK

IT. BYE BYE. GO AWAY.

SHOOOOOOOOOOO~

...

are they gone yet?

hmm? good! ^ω^

first of all, didnt go for b__d practice on recent sat [13th] because i had some doctor appointment thingy in the morning... then afternoon got EOY... omg... how to not go for EOY??? >___<

MX WAS THERE!
NAT WAS THERE!
TIKY WAS THERE!

^ω^ yeap! people i WANT to see is there too! ^ω^

pics? lol next pic post prolly...? today no mood...

mew~

goshujin-sama has been very nice to me~

so well... anw... rmb parasol kitty? yeap yeap she's being very close to me now... even taiga is closer to me too~ ^ω^

parasol kitty helps me put my sad thoughts away, which is very nice~

oh yes, bought my loli today =D

the label says GLP.. but o.o" it doesnt look very gothic to me lol... more of vintage and cutesy? mew~

nvm~ shall wait for naifu-sama's moolah then can collect my loli~ ^ω^

ok, signing off...

tmr got class chalet...

whee~

seriously, one more fucking time...
i swear,
i will cut out your heart and lick the blood off... personally.

06`12`08

2008-12-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

30`11`08

Parasol Kitteh ish shy desu~

Parasol Kitteh no want to see u nao

haha zich came 2 my house today... lol... didnt feel very well so i had 2 ask him 2 deliver the tix to some ppl... then collect moolah and come my house again...

cuz the weather was cold, i decided to make hot coacca for him ^ω^ mew~

see, kitty is good kitty! ^ω^

momma wanted 2 make him stay for dinner... o.o" she was looking at him wif pervy eyes! O.O"

then ask alot of questions... alot of questions tt made me facepalm... O___O"

lol unker zich is a nice person =DDD sankyuu!! =D

02`12`08

whee~
my keyboard broke recently, so yeap... im mass blogging~
on 2th dec, i bought a new keyboard wif dad =DDD

the keyboard ^ω^

keyboard being very at home on my keyboard holder =D

cool interface ^ω^

media functions ^ω^ left: the play/pause, stop, back, next buttons ^ω^ right: mute, vol up, vol down, mail, home, calculator

special keys: close window, back page, special windows vista type start button XD

03`12`08

CONCERT DAY =DDDD

whootz~

sold 8 tix =D

only 7 attended i think... [kosmo lost his tix.. but he paid for it... T___T ]

shanny... and her fren... idk where they went... o.o"

so the people who sat together in a row [left to right]:

Knife ^ω^
snow! ^ω^
zich ^ω^
momma ^ω^
dad ^ω^

whee~ everyone [of my frens - not the family... ] got a hug from me! ^ω^

snow got a hug on the spot during the interval..
zich got a distance hug before the concert...
knife got an online hug on the internet after the concert...

i even gave kosmo a hug on the thread XD

link to the thread: ★☆★ ♪ ♫ TK Band In-Concert 2008 ♫ ♪ ★☆★

mew~
for the thread i also made a banner! =D

Version 1

Version 2 - After comments from Bong

lol~ but anyway,
pics taken by my fone on the concert day:

nice banner ^ω^ [mr siao spent quite some time telling the workers to adjust it... o.o" ]

only time i cld take pics myself: when alumni band practicing ^ω^

Prezzies from yughan: candies in band, Prezzie from mr siao: letter ^ω^ personalised for each section yo! =DDD

our dinner area... has nice sky view... <3

Pics momma took:

Victoria Concert Hall

momma trying to take my pic lol! u can see the head of my fagott thou~

whee~ *stand up*

weird post... momma, dad & me =D [and of course, my bassoon reed LOL ]

zich, snowmaiden, me, meimu, knife [from left to right LOL XD ]

snow is poking mah face XD [knife's eyes are closed LOL]

zich's pics:
[excuse for oddly coloured red tinge in pics --> my gf does not like indoor... o.o" ]

whee i ish teh random person! XD

Me: yes ma?
ma: look at the cam lah!

me: ouh like this?

ma: no, closer~ ^ω^

another random candid shot -.-"

candid... o.o" *rubs nose*

knife: tada! meimu ish pretty =DDD
me & snow: hee~ hi meimu =DDD

snow: *poke*
knife: meimu meimu meimu OωO

zich: look at the cam~
S, Kn & Ki: ok! =DDD

knife: tada! meimu =D

knife: meimu shall balance on mai legs =D

me & snow: oooh~

me: hey zich! meimu balancing on knife's legs =DDD

05`12`08

went out today to buy stuffz =DDD

^ω^ met up wif master!!!
bought a very nice collar wif master at far east plaza

then later bought a nice punk skirt and a pair of lolita sleeves @ bugis =DDD

O.O when walking in bugis junction saw this random italian guy... O.O"

he started talking 2 me abt some weird stuff... o.o" hmm~ weird person...
>.< foreigners need 2 noe that places for picking/hooking up girls is not the streets but instead a bar or sth...

he looked kinda old 2 me... but surprisingly only 22yrs old... O.O 2yrs older than my pet, tenma, and 4yrs older than my master... O.O" LOL...

Alberto? hahahahahaha~ weird name too...
but sry dude, i dont fall for bald guys. ^ω^

ok, here's some pics again XD

taken at nite wif dad... LOL... clickie on pic 2 see... note the word: Vegetable Oil
blehx... i didnt noe that vege oil can be sold in "pieces" XD hahahaha!!!

At home:

camwhoring:

momma came in and decided to shoot pics for me LOL
[having someone take pics for u is better than putting the cam at one side and do continuous flicker...]

my white vintage singlet... blehx... the epicness lies in the back... o.o"

the punk skirt i bought...

full body poses...

pointy pointy...

acting innocent...

acting guai...

emoing...

emo emo emo...

draws circles on the floor...

draw... draw... draw...

i cant even draw circles on the floor... *emo cry*

lol i kinda look a lil bit like vkWinds [cuz i stuck my chin out abit... o.o"]
no wait... ok maybe im juz imagining things o.o"

*smile*

captioned by zich: hi sir, how can i service u? ^ω^
[lol complete bullshit *facepalm*]

hai, goshujin-sama?

nuuuuoooooooooooo~ dun go...

yeap? this is my territory...

u are now banished from here! *arm swipe*

u have a problem with the mistress?

zzz so bored...

SMILE!

SMILE!!

I'M FLYING!!! =D

hoods up! =D [yeap it's part of the shirt...

hmm...? omg i see the light...

hood fling over... omg it looks like my hair... XD

haha can adjust to reveal the shoulders...

*turn around* yeap?

06`12`08

morning: go band... watch vids... collect tags... o.o" tags are uber uber overdue...
afternoon: rebonded my hair =DDDD
whee~

so happy now =DDD i has straight hair =DDDD

whee~ finally posted everything ^ω^

happeh kat ish happeh naoz =DDD

mew~ cant go out for 2 days... cant wash hair for 2 days... o.o" at least... *facepalm*

i guess i have 2 end post now... so tired... zzzz....

29`11`08

2008-11-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

17th M► Band. Day Camp With Mr Kajiyama - Day 1
18th T ► Band. Day Camp With Mr Kajiyama - Day 2
19th W► Band. Day Camp With Mr Kajiyama - Day 3
20th T ► Band. Day Camp With Mr Kajiyama - Day 4
21th F ► Band. Alumni Dinner
22th S ► Morning: Band. Afternoon: AFA
23th S ► Band, but stayed at home
24th M► Band. World-In-Singapore Concert. Mr Kajiyama goes home for real. T_T
25th T ► Band.
26th W► Band. Morning: Farewell Rehearsal, Afternoon: Esplanade
27th T ► Band.
28th F ► Band. Morning: Sectionals, Afternoon: Farewell preparations, Evening: Farewell
29th S ► Band, but stayed at home.

sry for late late late update... really no mood 2 update... everything above is update from since the time i posted the cooking post T_T

17th ~ 21th

the heart aches have increased to a CRAZY frequency that alot of things cannot be done T___T

master has made me try to take the meds regularly... T___T sigh...

^ω^ master has been very nice to me~ kitty is happy too~

band has taken a toll on kitty's health... kitty missed the dance practice on wednesday too... T-T

Note of the Day: An unhappy kitty is not a healthy kitty! Mew~ T.T

ne... Alumni Dinner... the performance was... "wtf"...
nobody was actually listening 2 the band... in their minds the alumni ppl were like "OMG nice food nice food... mmm! *nomnomnomnomnom* kekeke i <3 the food... *nomnomnom* heh im happy i came... *nomnomnom*"
we we like... backstage crew... dressed in black... hiding in a little corner... carrying props and running across the stage...

IGNORED.

but its ok... ^ω^ kitty doesnt mind if people doesnt hear her horrible playing~
^ω^ besides, she got free pudding =D
Thanks joyce!

22th

Had band early this morning...
...
thought band would end at 12pm...
so i promised everyone i would make onigiri and be at AFA by 2pm...

but it ended at 1.30pm...
so i was late... by 2hrs...

...

poor zich waited for my tix for so long...
...
poor knife skipped lunch to save moolah cause i was bringing food...
...

naifu-sama was waiting for my special bento... but i didnt have time to prepare one for him...

...
however i DID arrange the onigiri into touhou style formation...
and i made some decent octo babies...

the onigiri... i made about 15 bah...
15 mini ones...

Note To Self: 2.5 cups of rice = 15 small onigiri

hmmm~

i reached suntec at around 4pm... T.T

called MX... she juz woke up / was feeling sick so she didnt go to AFA...

...

the onigiri was given out in... 10minutes...?

heh!~ the octo babies were given out even faster yo!

^ω^ broken even commented that "hey! its not burnt!" [cuz in the pics from the prev post they saw burnt octo babies...

i took extra care this time to ensure their survival T__T

^ω^ some ppl at the AFA havent even eaten since 8am
so my appearance was sort of... relieving for them? =X

when i reached, 1st thing i did was take care of the $$$...
so that was my 3rd ticket sold... and it went to Zich ^ω^

hmmm~ after the moolah collection, i opened the box...

oh wait!
before the moolah... when i put down my bag, i was glomped by master! ^ω^

ククク！御主人様は　私の　です！！　ケケケ！！！^ω^

^ω^ hmm~ where was i?

ahh yes!~

after i open the box... wanted to give onigiri to zich [cuz he bought mah tix!] but hungry master turned into domo-kun and nommed mah foodz! T_T mew~

^ω^ im happy naifu-sama came 2 take my food thou... he was really hungry...

mew~

angered tenma kun... >.< kuru kuru~
>.< gomenasai, tenma-kun... >.<

mew~
AFA was fun~

ichirou mizuki is bloody hell the best damned singer ever =DDD
im so glad i went for Day 1 instead of Day 2 ^ω^t fo

AFA`08!

torakoso: Entrance

My tix & programme booklet =DDD

jigoku shoujo! =DDD so cute! ^ω^ imma in luv with Emma Ai now =D

Stage... people waiting for ichirou mizuki [aniki] to perform...

some uber zai music band playing uber nice anime songs =DDD

heh odex is so hated~

nico nico sgcafe grp =D

御主人様！ ^ω^ 私の　可愛いな　御主人様です！

my stuffz... when going home from AFA~

23th

woke up... feeling damn sick... head hurts, everything luh...

then wen prepare and everything for band pract...

WTF! i turned on my phone and BAM!

infiltration of SMSes~!

RWAR!!!

missed calls, smses, omg!

everything!

O___O TURNS OUT I GOT THE TIME WRONG!

i mixed up the dates of the rehearsal and actual day so im late by 1hr T___T

then jet called me...
everyone was at Esplanade already T__T

Ms Tay said i dunnid go anymore... because since my instrument is at sch... so no point... T___T
bleahx........................

then mom was like... since i dunnid go sch... mite as well stay at home and recuperate... T.T

stayed at home... watched tv... surf net...
sian luh...
cant go band, cant go AFA [Day 2]... T_______T blehx~

24th

lololololololol~

WISC concert~

lucky got rehearsals in morning luh~
if not i die... XD hahahahahaha~

hmm~
SAS sch band is full of interesting ppl lol!

esplanade theater LOL!!!
this NOT backstage... we're performing at esplanade concert hall, but we keep all our barang barang at esplanade theater stage... XD hahaha~ looks big yeap? the white stuff in the shirts of the SAS Band ppl~ they're directly below the black long stage curtains... so u can roughly guess how big this place is...

OMG the room so big...? O___O

the ceiling stretch until... WHERE???? O.O" *faints*

Me, Jane Foo, Hajar
BASSOONISTS FTW =DDD
[yes i noe... SAS Band have chio ABC ppl XD ]

me wif elina? XD haha! SAS Band Tuba girl! =D

Jane Foo and her good friend Aimee XD
chio bassonist + chio saxaphonist XD

grp photo plox! XD im not inside cuz i was taking the pic XD

Ron Weasley? LOL no! this is Ford. Yeap. Ford. The brand of the enchanted car Mr. Weasley drives. XD

whee~
Mr Kajiyama went home tt day T__T *dies*

sad leh... o.o"

but anyway, he rocks =DDD
JYJY with breathing exercises XD

^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^ ^ω^

WISC was a success =DDD
and yesh, Deep Purple Medley FTW =DDDD

26th

had rehearsal for farewell... then in afternoon went for dance...
took this epic pic of my pet playing:

*knocks head* u spin so far... no1der u sick luh... *facepalm

28th

whee~

farewell party XD

whee~

kinda fun~
o.o" sort of... dang... i didnt noe tt erfi reads my blog...

-.-" during dinner he mentioned my neko ears T___T mew~

Epic: Azkhairy in skirt and pink hairband with PINK parasol XD

Zul and Nazira

Habib & Joyce -> Proposing scene
Oops QF not jealous?]

Hakim as old gay man from district of "Gay-lang"

POOF!!!

tired kitty iz tired naoz...

Baibai ^ω^

16`11`08 ❤ Cooking with Mama xin ❤ Home made Japanese Food

2008-11-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

formal full pics of the food~

bento only~

4 legged japanese bento octopus and sauces [soya sauce and wasabi] and dry dip for onigiri]

octopus babies

sauces [soya sauce and wasabi] and dry dip [seaweed bits + sesame seed + sugar ^.^ and mix mix mix!]

onigiri~❤

tamago~ ❤

mixed fruit cake~ serves as decoration only... it's not made by me... its bought from a bakery...

❤Onigiri❤
things needed
- calrose rice ► the short stubby rice that can be quite sticky used in japanese food... but whatever rice u have is ok~
-onigiri shaper ► actually if u want u can shape your own onigiri with your fingers as you would with sushi... but im kinda a novice so yeah... you can buy a set from daiso... it comes in many shapes but triangular shape is most often used ^_^
-rice cooker [duh]
-onigiri toppings/fillings ► sesame seeds, flaked salmon~ can be bought from daiso and/or yoshinoya ^_^
-onigiri flavourings! these are the mixture stuffs that you mix with your onigiri so the rice has flavour! can be found in daiso and in many brands!
-sushi mix! ► can be bought in form of powder or made! to make your sushi mix, just mix vinegar [white], sugar, salt together! dip your finger [clean of course] into your mixture to taste

Step 1: Cook rice. 1 cup = 4 huge onigiri or 6 small onigiri depending on the size of the onigiri shaper
note: while rice is cooking, please focus on making the other food ^_^

Step 2: When rice is cooked, please put place a metal bowl/plate below the rice cooker's container for rice after removing it from the rice cooker immediately. cover the container with a plate to keep it warm. the metal plate will prevent sticking to the bottom of the cooker and of course prevent the rice from being burnt! keep it for at least 5 minutes!

Step 3:After five minutes you can put the rice in a huge bowl with about 20ml [20ml is not 200ml... and the amount can vary according to preference... please dont put in too much... it is not nachos and cheese...] of the vinegar mix [can be made or bought... i prefer making it myself ^_^ ] and of course, mix it with your rice using a big wooden spoon used for cooking. prevent using metal spoons as calrose rice reacts badly when in contact with metal! [that's why traditional japanese rice is cooked in a wooden steamer like chinese dimsum ^_^ ]
note: prevent choppy actions when mixing or you'll end up eating a riceballs/tang yuan! please try to keep the rice LOOKING like rice! ^_^

Step 3: Pour in the onigiri flavourings, etc and mix! ^_^ please try to make the whole bowl of rice as equally mixed as possible!
note: please dont add in too much~ most flavourings come in packets that are SALTED so try to put in as carefully as possible...

Step 4a: When everything is mixed thoroughly, use the onigiri shapers [made of plastic! those made of cardboard are actually containers for people that sell onigiri to provide a system for "Takeaway" food to consumers]! load the rice mixture into them... not too fully please... and once the shape is complete, place them on the plate/in the bento box in an upright position.
note: if your onigiri shaper comes in form of container and cover, please do it again on the opposite side of the onigiri so that both sides are equal!

Step 4b: IF you would like to add fillings, load the onigiri shaper only to half and put little bit of filling into the ultimate center of the onigiri. if you put too much filling or put the filling too far out into the ends, it will fall apart! of course, fillings are not necessary!

Step 5: Repeat step 4 for all onigiri! please try to keep a gap between each onigiri so that they will not stick to each other ^_^ also, if you would like to, use a rectangular piece cut out from a sheet of seaweed to wrap the lower part of the onigiri. you can used the individually packed small rectangular seaweed usually mean for leisure snacking too if you can't find any japanese seaweeds or find them too expensive ^_^

Step 6: top the onigiri with the toppings, e.g. sesame seeds

Step 7: Put them into the fridge or leave them off too cool as you would prefer. if you are bringing them out to eat later then it's best to refrigerate and wrap them in plastic individually [wrap, not encase in plastic bags!] or put them into onigiri containers~ it will also retain the freshness of the ingredients as well!

Tada! you're done! ^_^

❤Octo Baby❤

things needed
-Sausages ► can be found in normal supermarkets ^_^
-Oven cooker
-cooking sissors ► can be ANY pair of sissors that is STRICTLY used for cooking only! hygiene, folks!

Step 1: Take the sausages out from the freezer.

Step 2: Thaw if necessary. if you are pressed for time [like your onigiri are cooking now] just run tap water over it and rub the with your index and thumb [i know... sounds wrong...] to accelerate defreezing... Once they are flexible enough, you can start working on them!

Step 3: Cut each sausage into 2 parts.

Step 4: Put the sissors into the center of the sausage on the cut end and cut around two thirds of the saugage. rotate the sausage by 90° and cut again.

Step 5: Repeat step 4 for all the halves.

Step 6: bend out the 4 legs of each half until it faces out at around 70°~ 90° [dont need to be accurate... just as long as they can stand] you can afford to let each leg tear/break a little [on the inside only!] before placing it in the oven!

Step 7: Please please please dont let it overcook! strange boils will bubble and it will turn black [like mine did T___T ]

❤Tamago❤

things needed
-eggs ► chicken eggs! use 2 for optimal results =D
-small bowl/raised plate
-fillings ► i used a bottle of assorted mushrooms! inside there was button mushrooms, enoki mushrooms and shiitake mushrooms ^_^
-toppings ► anything u want, really. i used sesame seeds and mozzarella cheese~ and yes, some bits of the dry dip are used as toppings too XD
-cooking pot!
-boiling water

Step 1: Crack the eggs and mix them well~ [please check for egg shells before mixing ^_^]

Step 2: After thorough mixing, put into small bowl/raised plate and add in the fillings/mushrooms [mine was sort of like a "huge evaporating dish from the science lab" so it was actually more of a quarter circle type of shape~ ^_^ [like when u half an onion and then half that semicircle, you know? ]

Step 3: Pour 1cm~2cm of boiling water into the cooking pot and put the small bowl/raised plate into the pot... the water level should not exceed the height of the small bowl/raised plate! A Saucer may be used to put below the plate/bowl if it is too low

Step 4: Turn on the fire [to medium] and steam it [yes, put the cap on top of the pot]

Step 5: when cooked, simply carefully remove the egg from the small bowl/raised plate and put it in your desired container/bento! ^_^

ok! im done now! Bye!

Eto... Please do not jeer my half assed cooking... >_<
post finished at: 2:32am ~ 17 november 2008

07`11`08

2008-11-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

yo~

today i went to polyclinic dis morning [yeah mom decided polyclinic 1st then go hospital if it's rly serious] to check my heart...

eto~

here's sth rly creepy...

here's my ticket number..

it's supposed 2 be 4 digits if u are normal patient...

special cases get a letter in front like P, A, etc~

so yeah... had a x-ray and a ECG test... T____T

doctor said im fine...
after poking me here and there.. asking if it feels painful or not...

uhhh... excuse me... who doesnt feel painful when u're pressing her chest... -.-"

but anw~
main point is that... im actually ok! =D
so yeah, knife! i dont have a hole in my heart!
stop telling people that i do! rawr! OmO

at home later~
very happy mood ^_^ took out my cat ears and had some fun dressing up ^____^

Kitty ears + Kitty tail~

Add an apron =D

Bang! Tada!

Hai, goshujin-sama?

Hee~ i copied dis pose off somewhere~

Lets try kneeling down~ ^_^

Change of outfit! =D

Rawr~ meow~

Issit ok if i pull my ponytails? :3

Emo~ Emo~ Emo~

Meow~ look into my eyes

Nya~ [copies the uneasy look on mikuru's face]

ok~
overall it was fun! XD

3rd change of attire only has 1 pic posted cuz the rest are well~
ehem not really decent [for my blog]

so yeah~

^_^ bye~

05`11`08

2008-11-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

hi! today was fun =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

dance dance was shiok~ lol~

got to show off wad i've practiced at home and etc~ XD

hmm~
dancing wif miniskirt = fun fun and more fun LOL!

hmm~
after trying hare hare yukai... again...
and cat...
and other dances...
the girls all formed together... tried 2 invent sth...
SUDDENLY
we started 2 do stupid weird dancing [sexy dancing? LOL alot of ppl dunno how so looked damn funny XD ]

yesh.. then it turned into a GROPE FEST. lol!
girls groping girls. omg~
T____T i kena some times... T___T eeteuk... why..... T____T

hmmm~ it's ok~

anw~

later after that... started playing piggyback... lol~

i <3 carrying wen li on my back and running around like chokobo lol!

oh... ate a bit of wen li's lolipop too! XD

knife plays domo to the loli too! XD

hmmm~
much much later
tenma [my pet] arrives~
bwahahah!

went to take his wolfie tail and wore it! XD
someone pulled it from my ass and broke it T_______T
sry tenma~
o.o" i tink i was forgiven... lol...
BECAUSE IN THE END I GOT A SHOULDER RIDE =DDDD

yeap! sat on tenma's shoulder ^.^ then he carried me up up up! =D

1st reaction: OMG IM TALL =DDDDDD
2nd reaction: OMG KNIFE LOOKS SMALL FROM HERE =DDDD
3rd reaction: OMG I CAN SEE "SO-AND-SO" DANDRUFF!! O.O!!!

well... i dun tink tenma has the same sight as i did...
cuz he carried me on his shoulder... so its's the height of tenma [till shoulder] + my butt + main part of body + my neck + my head = height.

lol!

oh yesh... i was scared of broken... and shihiro... but now im not scared anymore...

OMG~
BROKEN CAN DRAW =DDDD

his casual sketchings/drawings can PWN my art anytime~

dinner was nice... o.o

lol~ boob joke XD

on my plate: rice + 1 sunny side up egg + some vege + 1 BOOB

lol!

its a tofu... adorned wif a pea on top [lol i dunno y]

but the tofu is nice XD

ok ok no more innuendoes~

o.O" hmmm~
after dinner i did ask around ppl 2 buy tk band tix... but too expensive... T___T

asked Lockie... and he had his "D colon "

sigh~

but that was happy day

OMG

so many things happened yo! =DDDD

to jonathan: happy trip to beijing =D will miss ur funny talking wen u're gone~

31`10`08

2008-10-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

Happy halloween ppl =D

recent days have been very enjoyable~ ^____________^

monday -> deepavali outing ❤
tues -> band
wed -> esplanade dance ❤❤❤
thurs -> band
friday -> halloween + outing! =DDD

wednesday~
lol~
i was too early i guess... so i went 2 wander around until 3pm before going 2 esplanade... then i saw nobody... so i went back down in2 the cityhall-esplanade alley way~ =X wait wait wait.. then finally i saw tsuki! =D lucky me!

O.o then i realised that there already was 2 ppl.. o.O li qing and dis other guy whose's name i cannot rmb... =X

nya~
anw..........

learnt hare hare yukai [mikuru version]! =DDDD

thx eeteuk for teaching lulz~

=DDDDD

halloween outing is fun desu~

kinda sad naifu-sama's dolfie not coming home... but im sure she will soon =D
[plz save up! =D ]

i ❤ my jellybeans =DDD

Till Death Do Us Apart

2008-10-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

i found this from http://www.cdason.com/2008/10/25/till-death-do-us-part/#comment-4919

happy reading =)
oh yes, the story will start out boring... but read till the end... very... omg-ish...

To All Married Couples and Singles Who Intend To Get Married
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn’t love her anymore..I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day,we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes
and said softly, don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life tome. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned myface away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, it was just like our wedding day.But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school.I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office… jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind… I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:
I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property , the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you just might save a marriage.
- Author unknown -

28`10`08 - Quiz ❤ Lostie!

2008-10-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tagged by Lostie! (Syu Kun ❤)

Rule 1: People who have tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new new question.

Rule 2: Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag back the person but to continue this with other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
- Well... duh...

2. Would you fall in love with a boy older than you?
- All of my ex's are older than me... so well, duh... -.-

3. Do you enjoy going school?
- Lol no~ cuz i cant see him at sch... T.T

4. What will you do with a billion dollars?
- Hmm~ 1/2 give charity, 1/4 splurge of me and family, 1/4 save in bank ^_^

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend's stead?
- Lol maybe~ but duh i wun let any1 noe luh!~

6. If you have to choose one person between your best friend and boyfriend, who will you choose?
- Best friend ❤❤❤ San san i will love you forever! =D ^___________^

7. List out your 20 favorite songs:
01. Caramelldansen ❤❤❤
02. Numb - Linkin Park
03. With Me - Sum 41
04. With You - Chris Brown [?]
05. With You - Linkin Park
06. In The End - Linkin Park
07. Everyheart - BoA
08. Can't Help Falling In Love - A*Teens
09. I Just Wanna Live - Good Charlotte
10. My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion
11. Chronicles of Life and Death - Good Charlotte
12. Ai No Uta - Every Little Thing
13. Dearest - Ayumi Hamasaki
14. Petrified - Fort Minor
15. Don't Phunk With My Heart - Black Eyed Peas
16. (don't) Leave Me Alone - Ayumi Hamasaki
17. Marionette - Ayumi Hamasaki
18. Sontanshi - Kaoru Wada
19. Come - Namie Amuro
20. Opera #2 - Vitas

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what will you do?
- Lol the usual lor~ try to tear out my feelings~ XD

9. Is there something that has made you extremely happy?
- YESH YESH =D goshuujin sama~ ❤❤❤

10. Who is your favorite singer/actor?
- ^___________^ Chester Bennington!

11. How do you see yourself 10 years ago?
- Hmm~ In japan? XD

12. Who is currently the most important person to you?
- eto... everyone ish equally important, my dear friend~ ❤

13. What is the most important thing in your life?
- Hmmm~ Tomodachi! =D i ❤ my frens!

14. Which is important? Family or Career?
- Family!!! =DDDDD

15. What is your favorite color?
- Blue! [then black, then blood red ❤ ]

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
- I usually give my all... Try my best to make it work~ ^_^ But most importantly i usually try to make the other party happy~ ❤❤❤

17. If two different person fall in love with you, who will you choose?
- The one i love more... and i noe will not hurt me...

18. Would you forgive the person who betrayed you?
- Yeah... >.< im really bad at being angry at people for long periods of time...

19. What will you tell to the person you love?
- Tell him that i love him... i guess...? Lol he already knows so well~ not much point repeating over and over in his face~ XD but hey, it's nice when someone replies wif a "i love you too", aint it? XD

20. Five person I tagged:
Jasmine
Knife
Wei Qing
Siliang
Jet

27`10`08

2008-10-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

happy day desu! =D ❤❤❤

went out wif naifu-sama! ^___^

watched 20th century boys! =D

great movie lol! abit the "omg wtf? O.O" at some parts, but really interesting~ XD
ehem~ the movie abit draggy at times.. o.O

lol! anw, today shall be the 1st time naifu-sama and i went out for 1 full day =D

meaning from 12pm till 9.30pm+++? Lol!

^____^ it's like... from hyper hyper happy happy mood to yawning mode. XD

ehem~ on mrt ride home... ehem~ abit heart pain lah~
but having naifu-sama there the pain is lessened ^___^

arigatou gozaimasu! ^__________^

lol~

recently i realised tt i've been seeing his face alot recently lol!

meaning like almost every alt day O.o

cuz on wed have dance grp... on friday ish uhh... for fun de... monday also... XD

sunday? XD lol idk sometimes? lol! nya~ wakaranai wakaranai~

hmmm~ maybe post outing pics next time XD haha~

lol yesh dis shall be a short post cuz nth much 2 write XD haha~

mew~
im so glad tt i get to eat sushi more often now =DDDD

ahh~
in case u're thinking abt the mummy thing...
yes... im not immune to his existence yet... but i swear... some day...
>___< the acceleration did not help... instead it made my health worse...
so i guess... i just have to wait it out...
or let someone help me... >_<

will you be there to catch me while i fall...?

Pan's Labyrinth - El Laberinto del Fauno

2008-10-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

Pan's Labyrinth - El Laberinto del Fauno

i just watched Pan's Labyrinth on okto...

and seriously speaking, i loved it to pieces.

Pan's Labyrinth movie poster

the movie is in spanish, but there were subtitles so i could understand what they were saying. ^.^

but yeah, i did understand when they said "muchos", which is "more" and "gracias" which is "thanks". ^___^

Unlike what the movie title, Pan's Labyrinth, suggests, no, the little girl's name is NOT Pan.

The spanish version of the title, "El Laberinto del Fauno", actually literally means "The Labyrinth of the Faun"

in case u aint got a clue what a faun is, it's a half-man half-goat creature, by what Mercedes said, is not to be trusted.

The story is set in Spain in 1944, after the Spain Civil War.

Ofelia, the girl in the story, has a mother who married Captain Vidal. Captain Vidal is like a Spain version of Hitler. A cruel, brutal man who does not see equality in other races.

When the movie started, Ofelia was playing in the woods when she found a locust, whom she believe was a fairy. The scene later shows her mother, who was heavily pregnant, reprimanding her before they got into the vehicle towards the home of Captain Vidal.

When they reached, Ofelia attempts to shake hands with him but he grabbed her left hand harshly, saying firmly "it's your other hand" before ordering Mercedes, a female servant, to carry the bags.

Later, she sees the locust again, thus chasing after it into the Labyrinth.

The gate of the labyrinth and the old tree itself

In the labyrinth, she meets Mercedes, who tells her that the place is a labyrinth before leading her out of it back to where the others were. Ofelia also firmly stated that Captain Vidal was not her father, expressing her disapproval of her mother's remarrying.

Later that night, when Ofelia was in her mother's room after the doctor has seen her mother. Upon her mother's request, Ofelia tells a tale to her unborn baby brother. About a mountain that bears a rose that grants eternal life to whoever that picks it.

As she slept that night, Ofelia was awaked by the same insect again, who leads her into the labyrinth, to a faun. The faun told her that she was Princess Moanna, and she has to complete three tasks before the full moon to prove that she has not turned into a human yet.

The first task was to retrieve a key from the belly of a giant toad that lives deep under the roots of a fig tree. The giant toad's lair was a slimy, muddy area, covered in woodlice. Ofelia eventually realises that overfeeding the giant toad will cause it to vomit and gives the giant toad some woodlice to eat. The toad gags and chokes, eventually puking it's internal body, which was actually a giant tongue, covered in woodlice and a large key.

Ofelia then returns to the faun to give him the key. She expresses her worry for her sick mother and the faun gives her a mandrake, of which she must place under her bed in a bowl of milk and feed 2 drops of blood to it everyday.

As her stepfather, Captain Vidal, proves to be a brutish, violent and cruel man, Ofelia recieves her second task - using the key to retrieve an ornate dagger from the lair of the Pale Man, disgusting monster with slits for a nose with no eyes nor ears and lose skin that sits silently in front of a large feast. The faun warned Ofelia not to eat anything from the feast, of which she defied and ate 2 grapes, thus awaking the monster. It picks up the eyeballs from a dish on the table and puts them into the palm of his hands where sockets for the eyes lie.

He then walks towards Ofelia and eats two out of the three fairies of which the faun has told to follow Ofelia to assit her. The Pale Man chases Ofelia to the door in which she entered from. However, Ofelia accidentally loses half of the chalk she had and quickly draws a small escape door in the ceiling which led to her bedroom.

Despite the fact that Ofelia has gotten the dagger from the table of the Pale Man, the faun is angered that she had disobeyed him and caused the fairies deaths by eating the grapes, thus refused to give her the third and final task.

I shall stop here. why? because u have to know the rest of the story yourself! =D

and this is becoming a huge wall of text~ so yeah, go watch the movie! ^_^

19`10`08

2008-10-19T17:56:00.000+08:00

hmm...

today is the start of okto...

woke up around 12pm and went to watch Steve Irwin movie on okto...
quite nice i guess...?

hmm~
i had a strange dream last nite...

i was in an mrt train...
wif him... o.o
it strange... because i was in his arms...

it was a silent dream... cuz i dun rmb any conversation...

lol... what is this...

i broke the record i guess... 3rd time im dreaming this yr... lol~
usually i get only 1 or 2 dreams per year... lol... sometimes none at all...

hmmm~
after some stuffz i rmb going in2 the next mrt cabin... [yes i noe like psp game liddat]

then i saw this miniature cat...

it's so cute and tiny! =D
it was walking on these... platforms/runways near the ceiling on the walls of the cabin...

then suddenly a normal sized cat appears... lol prolly it's mother? XD

then i rmb talking to someone... then the cat sprout wings and dissapeared... o.O"

then i rmb tt person [whoever he is] talking abt "you trust the cat?" then i feel this prick behind my back...
so i reached behind and grabbed this thing wif wings from my back... only to realise it's not the kitty...

but it's some insect wif a bottle shaped body instead of the normal 3-segment-body tt insects have...
it's body is red... a bright red... a thin needle as a mouth...?

lol i guess it prolly sucked my blood... so i just smacked it and my blood spilled everywhere... LOL!

then... the kitty appeared again... <3
winged kitty is cute =D

reminds me of this pic:

kawaii ne! <3

oh yes, after that, i woke up. lol~

o.O i woke up to his smell... o.o"

lol~
i really dunno wad 2 say~

but somehow, im thankful that this smell is here. because i hid the smell of someone else. yes, someone else whom i dun wan 2 be reminded of.... >.<

oh~

and i beat touhou stage 3! lol!

after playing easy i went to try lunatic. XD lol~ died 1/2way in stage 1... LOL~

after tt went 2 try dance dance =)

taught momma how 2 do caramelldansen~

LOL i anyhow do 1... cuz well... =X cuz she cant really follow so mite as well simplify some parts... lol~
ehem~ well... not like she's gonna try caramelldansen any time soon mah~

oh, and for huaixi, if she ever comes here...

here's Danjo! =D

p.s. yes i tried danjo XD i totally got pwned by a video
p.p.s. T___T new ultimate goal: cosplay! =D but must be sth epic/easy. LOL!

私は彼方が~~愛しています~~好きです。。。

此れは私の夢です。

私せっかくの夢。

お願い。。。　私の夢が　殺てない。。。

私の　心が　傷つけない。。。

18`10`08

2008-10-18T23:59:00.001+08:00

it's the dead of the night... 2:14am...
strange...

i just beat touhou... uhh... only to stage 2... but well... i dun sense much accomplishment...

all the time while i was playing that game... i was thinking of u...

why...?

i have no idea as well...
sigh...

15`10`08

2008-10-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

lol~

today was fun! =D

dance @ esplanade~ lol~

=X ok i did an uber horrible job cuz im a noob... >_<
thank god knife was there 2 guide lol~
if not i m really a headless chicken!

special thanks:
to khai khai: for finding my wallet! =D
to spartan, eeteuk, karei: for identifying tt it's me! i noe... tt pic has me wif specs... so u aint got a clue who it is... =X lucky eeteuk rmb the "zx" on the back of my shirt [old class tee] today & matched wif my chi name! =DDD
to unknown #3: for learning dances wif me. lol! yes, we are lost XD
to nya: for teaching me & unknown #3~ lol! caramelldansen rawkz =DDDD

oh p.s. i am unknown #2. lol~

kekeke~

today @ sch nth much lah~ haha bearable? XD

life is so much easier wif u lol~
even when u arent there, thinking abt stuff makes me smile.
and really, i can smile for the whole day for no good reason LOL!
[lol ok got reason lah... but i can say "the reason is you" cuz it'll sound all wrong and corny lol!]

haha interesting part came at 12.55~
sex ed! lol!

omg lah~
issit a sign? XD
"stop being such kuku and do stupid things can? -.- "
^ mostly wad i wld say 2 myself~

haha~

oh btw, i have decided. on days where i wanna post abt sad things, i wld write in diary. on days where i wanna post abt happy things, i would write here =D

it makes my blog more cheerful and at the same time i forget sad things faster! =D

lol~
anw...
chiaw min, siddarth, hiro, arsal and soohan had sex today. LOL!!!
yeap. cross sex-tionals. LOL!
haha very fun lol~

the sex ed speaker looks like she's had too much cuz her lips seem broken lol~ =X oops~

lol sry sry~
oh u noe sth?

she taught us how 2 use condoms. LOL!
yes, wif pictures and a toy dick / dildo? XD

i had no idea tt condoms had dis tip on top. and i also had no idea that u're supposed 2 squeeze the top-
lol ok i shall stop here. mite have juniors reading haha~

lol~

after the sex ed.. umm... sch ended at 2.30pm... then straight away go 2 esplanade~ lol~

had 2 cartons of milk today, so abit sleepy~
decided to fall asleep lying on knife's shoulder~
but then when i open my eyes i saw reinheart trying to take pic/video and i quickly sat up~ lol!
haha sry guys~
i rmb hearing them go "oh uh too slow~"

haha~ i tink im expecting another misunderstanding lol~
but really, heck lah. who cares lol~

hmmmmmm~

very sad today. omg~
i got groped by a girl! nya~ T_T

lol~
yes, tt's rite, tt's my 1st time, eeteuk. umm... k, at least by a girl. -.-
den someone else joined in. wtf. O.o
it's like... double kill lah~
den i put my arms around like some egpyt mummy and squatted down lol~

knife came over and comfort/talk 2 me. lol. den people started saying "OMG KNIFE WAD U DO TO KIRARA?"
then i heard sth like "eeteuk groped her! knife also!"
LOL????? LOL x2 x3 x4 x5 x6 x7 x8 x ∞

haha nvm~ XD

lol but its ok lol eeteuk i forgive u lol! XD

P.S. one of the people wore a sharingan eye on 1 eye yo~ XD

oh... and i tink i got my vid taken... omg... im juz dancing tt dance 4 the 1st time... idk how 2 dance... T_T then i was slow... >_< mew~

hmm~ went off early... lol~
but when eating dinner suddenly my heart vry pain... o.o"

ya... -.- i noe... dumb...
someone said my heart may have a hole. as in, literal hole. lol~
aww~ so sad sia... who knows i mie die... lol..
den i kinda tried 2 lighten up the atmosphere [despite the fact tt my chest was aching like hell]...

but it only made him SADDER. gaah. -_-

wad's worse... wen i left i read ur sms... omg...
"Kitty everytime thathappens, i will feel scared. Even if you say you're fine."
"Kitty made me cry...*some text not included*"

omg... i nvr expected u 2 worry so much abt me... nor did i expect u 2 shed a tear...
i nvr expected 2 be tt impt...? it's like... its not like im special or wad... lol~

but well... thx 4 ur concern lah~ i'm really ok~

i will see doctor, but not now. lol~
cuz its been there for years anw~

lol ok its late liao. 2am. and i gotta post this. XD

ciao~

I'm not disallowing you from liking me...
i just wish that you wouldn't...
despite the fact that i do already.

How can i ever prevent myself from falling?

12`10`08

2008-10-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

10`10`08

perc outing =D
it was fun lol~

i had dnt in the morning...
ehem~ everyone couldnt wait 2 leave~ XD

lol~
anw, i reached sentosa place @ 3pm bah... lol~ in jeans and perc shirt~
haha~
played taiti wif damien, hajar & joel... XD ran in the sun 3 times...

wtf damien nvr run at all...
lol i tink owen owes them 1 round? lol~

we played captain's ball 2~
hajar's team got 3, my team got 7?
lol nt me~ it's the success of PICKING habib, rifat & damien. lol~

lol 2g`07 ppl were there~
but really, i wld rather spend the day with perc than them if i were to choose anw~

perc is much more fun lol~

after everything @ around 7+ we all went 2 vivo to eat dinner?
lol damien recommended dis uber expensive chicken rice shop? lol~
in the end owen forced him 2 nom all his bean sprouts~
lol~
it was fun watching them [joel & damien] struggle over bean sprouts XD

Rifat: it's not your fault... you just haven had the proper training [to eat veges] since young. ^_^

lol rofl?

anw~ after the outig nt really any energy so i didnt come on9... also felt kinda sick lah... =X

11`10`08

band. -.- no posting abt band lol~

12`10`08

hmm~ lol stayed at home do nth... lol~

ohya~ got dnt.. zzzz... ok nvm i shall go and do hw nw... oh wait~

pics time =)

wq & i haha~

yeap im reposting the back of the percussion tee cuz of domo-kun ❤

a domo wallpaper for all the adoring fans =DDDD

damien & joel... awwwww~

the last pic is the most imba pic of all................

Smexy cutlery! lol! guess who lol~

lol ok tt's enuff for now =)

yeap esther, i decided 2 b nice and not post abt ur pic =)

cheers~

"heart goes doki doki"?
oh shit. same here.

09`10`08

2008-10-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

Picture Post!

02`10`08

Tree huggers! =D [take by San San ❤ ]

i ❤ vegan noodles =D

03`10`08

Beware of neko-chan! XD ABUNAI ABUNAI!!!

lol dad went for some wedding and got me some melamine chocolates =D

umm... shop... sells loli shoes =D

Chain: Down & Up version ❤

Fishnet armwarmers

Waist Chain <3 [still in packaging]

Waist Chain X3

I <3 Converse!

Having fun letting momma take mah pics =D

Rawr! I'm fierce!

Sitting down XP

hands & Shoes [lol~]

Yes? :)

06`10`08

Me & Shimin, writing away lol!

08`10`08

lol pic courtesy of Knife XD

09`10`08

Ok! Who divided by zero?

Trees~ Can you see the ❤?

Odex! The yellow car is the race car of the big tree

lol Hi =)

Text post now! =D

06`10`08

lol~ stupid exams~ thx 4 shimin~

stayed back wif me 2 write for my goodybooks flyers! XD
plz follow this link 2 goodybooks to read the book!

http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou.htm

& yes, if u really wanna buy the book, but dont trust the internet, feel free 2 ask me how 2~ lol!

yeap, i know the author! XD

07`10`08

went out with san san & putri... lol~
it was their last exam mah~ XD

walked around parkway~
bought some stuff~ kekeke~

oh oh~
& i played DDR @ san san's hse! ❤❤❤

sadly, i sucked.
thankfully, san san was the only 1 tt witnessed my ultimate defeat XD
but hey, i didnt fail! =DDD

oh oh~
& 1 more thing!
san san! putri! shimin! i ❤ u guys! =DDD [psst~ dis is not yuri o.o!]

p.s. lol putri i really didnt expect u 2 noe wad lolita is! XD

08`10`08

whee~
WAS supposed 2 go out wif san san, winnie & jie jie~ lol~
but since putri pon, and i think they going home soon~ so i switched my plans~ XD

haha went to esplanade wif naifu-sama~ ^_^

mew~

met some nice ppl too! =D

laughted alot~ XD

oh oh~ and i kena pat on the head & poked in the tummy by alot of random guys~ XD haha~
it was really fun yo!

Unknown #1! Nice to meet you! XD

oh yes, i am Unknown #2! XD

haha when we announced that we are anonymous, other people joined in~ so there was a big grp of ANON ppl~ lol!

whee~ ^_^

i learnt wad an usa-chan is [usagi = rabbit] & well, the girls ran 2 esplanade library 2 play wif water! LOL!

whee~

we found a bottle of MELAMINE COKE! OUH NOEZ! XD

haha~

the anime dancing grp was fun, i guess?

alex [the girl] is cool!~
i ❤ ur piercings! =D startrek! lol!

haha ate sushi wif knife before leaving~ XD it was fun, i guess? LOL!

Sashimi rawkz!

09`10`08

whee~

today was last day of exams for Weiqing

so yeah, we went out tgt XD

so fun! =D

we went to orchard
we went to bugis
we went to doby ghaut
we went to~

lol!

kinokuniya is fun =D
saw many jap mags! XD

ate grilled fish @ food republic @ wisma atria! =D
happy happy! ^_^

lol~ i stoned alot of times today XD
why?
cuz went i knock in2 ppl / when i almost knock in2 ppl, i will stone.
and stone.

OMG! wad if there's a stampede? i will stone for all eternity! XD
kitty will turn into roti prata kitty! =D

lol~
went to bugis l8r 2 take neos =D
<33333333 so fun! =D
finally got me & wq's neos yo! =D
[will post neos wen i upload in2 com lol!]

lol~
mew~

WQ! YES I ❤ YOU! =DDDD
BFF =DDDDDD

lol!
after neos~

went walking abit~
& wq talked abt... oyaku? omg! i cnt rmb wad it's called! T___T nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

its ok! as long as i UNDERSTAND u can liao, yep? XD ^_^

hmmm~
after the walking~ wq complained tt she's thirsty~
so yeap, since her comfort is important, we went 2 macs for a drink~
lol talked random stuff~
ate fries too! =D

haha~
wq had 2 leave early
so we went back 2 bugis station
& wq met knife! lol! XD

after saying bye bye, knife & i went 2 the loli shop he promised last time lol!

the place is cool! =DDD

Nice clothes yo! =DDD
i ❤ the moo moo kitty tt walks around the shop!
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

happy happy mew mew~ ^_^

wen i was inside suddenly the shop owner [woman] went out and brought knife wif her~ lol~

smoking, i think? XD
i was looking @ some stuffs~
den i overheard dis word: "cute girl"

den i stoned [no, nobody banged me! T.T ] den i went out~

lol! pull knife away den asked
turns out she thinks im his gf. lol??? XD

3rd time we were mistaken for a couple! XD wth! XD haha! but well, who really cares? LOL!

oh, and apparently, she doesnt just think tt i'm his gf. apparently, she thinks tt he's buying the expensive lolita/dolfie to "propose" 2 me! lol???

i have never made such a big LOL in my life XD

LOL!!!!!!!!

haha~

mew~
haha~

oh oh~
we went 2 kinokuniya @ i read the book called "The Train man!" lol!

after tt went 2 buy nougat 4 momma [cuz i ❤mah momma] & bought sushi for dinner XD
he is a good dinner-partner. LoL!

*so high now*

haha ok it's 3am le~

tmr [10th] i still have 2 go sch...

den i have 2 go 4 perc thingy @ sentosa~ lulz!!! XD

whee! LG! Life's Good! haha!

P.S. The Train Man is a good book! =3

はい、彼方が　好きです。(='ω'=)

01`10`08

2008-10-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

1st post..
happy children's day...

i came here today to say thank u
to a particular someone.
thank you... for not being frightened when u learnt abt my past...
thank you... for not being remotely disgusted...

for being there for me...
for caring for me...
for all those nice things u've said...

true words u've said...
just because people break promises all the time doesnt mean that i have to follow suit...
just because people are mean doesnt mean i have to be mean to them to
just because i've been through a rough day doesnt mean that i cant smile

and for all those things u did
and for all those things u said
im smiling.

and ever since that day, u've been smiling since.
so thank you for making me smile that first genuine smile
and thank you for making me laugh that first hearty laughter
because all those that followed later grew wider and bigger and louder and of course, happier.

thank you for being there
but also thank you for not being there.
why?
because it reminds me that u wont be there forever.
because it reminds me that u wont be there for good.

and because of that i wont depend on u. :)
but thank you for holding my hand through that raging sea
because i truly needed help

so yeah
happy children's day
to all those children that are grown up physically but young at heart
& selamat hari raya
to all my favourite malay frens (happy fattening urselves up yo!)

so yeah
good night people
& welcome the midnight sun

yes,
i love you too.
thanks for being a great friend
&i promise you, with my life

28`09`08 random

2008-09-28T20:34:00.003+08:00

random
i love random people.
...

ok... tt was random..
msg:

"thanks for letting me meet all those random people that day. thank u so much."

ok, after tt random random random thingy, lets move on.

i did sth uber random 2day. i went 2 buy plum to sooth my sore throat.
then i downed a bag of potato chips. wtf rite? i noe, i totally agree wif u.

...
>.<
kitty is BORED BORED BORED!
tmr eoys 2nd day
tmr also momma's b'day!
omg omg omg!
*panic panic*

...
k
diao...

sigh~
kitty dun wan 2 study...
T_____T
ok enuff randoness liaoz... -.-
since in reading chem, lets write a chem qtn! =DDD

Li (g) + K (s) + C03 (aq) + H2 (g) ---> LiCK (e) + 02 (g) + H20 (l)
Lithium + Potassium Carbonate + Hydrogen --> LiCK + oxygen + water

key
G - gas
S - solid
aq - aqueous
l - liquid
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e - EPIC!! <3333>
ok i noe... LAME!

^_^
signing off!

"i guess... silly boys will be silly boys..."

27`09`08

2008-09-27T18:12:00.005+08:00

update on recent events (aka health log)
18th (thurs) - felt sick... bones aching all over... nvr come sch...

19th (fri) - feel better. went back 2 sch

23th (tues) - didnt go 2 sch. felt very very sick. throat damn pain. bones damn pain. head hurts like hell. [idk if it's cuz of the illness tt my body hurts so much... or issit cuz mom beats the hell out of me everytime i tell her i dowan go sch cuz of illness...]

24th (wednesday) - better. went back 2 sch.
25th (thurs) - sore throat suddenly very serious. i sound like my voice breaking... wtf...

26th (friday) - a bit better... kena by rain... flu got worse...

27th (saturday) - woke up @ 11am... got up from bed 15mins later because i had 2 vomit... blew my nose and had dark green stuff come out...siao liao siao liao... >.<

ok lah... today... as u can see wad happened le lah...
hmm...
didnt eat breakfast den go eat medicine... i dun wan vomit out anymore liao...
after medicine... mom made me some porridge... nothing 2 eat wif porridge cuz cai xin [pickled lettuce] finished... lucky mom found a can of vegetarian mock abalone in cupboard and open tt can 4 me...

ergh. as i said, vegan abalone doesnt taste anything like abalone whereas vegan fishcakes taste exacty like real abalone. but heck. i dun really care...

after dinner... or rather... eat 1/2way... very very tired... muz be the drowsy effect of the pills...? idk lah... fell asleep... slept until 2 or 3 pm... gosh...

hmmm...
now eating dinner... same thing...
porridge with mock abalone...

ergh... haven study yet all day... very ill...
either someone cure me fast or someone motivate me plz... *drifting off 2 sleep...*

"how can i ever allow myself do this to you?"

26`09`08 | icons!

2008-09-27T01:48:00.003+08:00

if u look clearly, my blog's icon [in navigation bar] is changed ^_^

also, if u look closely, my links now have a small icon [like tv screen/speech bubble] next to it =D
if u hover over the tv screen, a small window will open, allowing u 2 see a small little preview screenshot of that page =DDD cool yep? =DDD

making favicons are fun! =DDD [the nav bar thingy]

ok ok update next tym, buh bye!

ok ok i noe it's 1am luh... -.- i will go sleep... -.-

psst... lolitas are cute <33

mew~ ^.^

realisation

2008-09-26T01:14:00.004+08:00

~~stop faking ur joy.~~

i juz realised...
as long as i dont think about it, as long as i dont write about it, as long as i dont remember it, i'll be much happier.

that's why i havent been posting on actual dates recently. cuz i wanna forget the bad things, and keep the good things.

chiaw min is damn right, about both things.
and thx 4 sharing ur ideas/thoughts/etc. much appreciated =)

& to a particular someone -
sometimes, people dont realise until they lose sth, rite?
so i really hope tt one day, u will realise.
stop it wif ur chicken backsiding ego.
get a life.
and stop making it sound as if i need you to survive.
because i dont.
seems like assholes like you dont understand PITY.
let's get this straight:
you're fat, you're old, you're friendless.
i dont need you, i just sympathize you.
if you still wanna be so big-headed, fine.
u live wif ur head, dont bother looking me up again.
u loser.

ok, once tt's cleared up wif =)

yes recently i've been happier.
and now even more happy after ranting out =)
=DDDDD
i'm having EOY english in... 7 and 1/2 hrs... lol... gd luk 2 me =D

& 2 another particular someone,
thanks for being there for me
thanks for all the hugs
you're a great friend
i dont care what you do,
i dont care what you like
cuz i like you just the way you are
& i like being dragged around by u =)
thanks for being there all this while

hee~ i actually came 2 blog 2day 2 scold a stupid beetle who "slapped" my face wen i was bathing. but now i dont really care anymore.
why?
cuz im high~ =^___^=

^___^ i have a feeling that kitty is coming back! ^____^

ok i gtg liao~
buh bye!

psst.... it's 26 =) a few more days 2 my mom's bday, 4 more months to my b'day! =D

Timbaland - The Way I Are
"I don't need the G's or the car keys
Boy I like you just the way you are
~~Let me see ya strip, you can get a tip~~
'Cause I like you just the way you are"

22`09`08

2008-09-22T02:26:00.001+08:00

hihi =D
it's 1.30am lol!
im nt really in a blogger mood, so i'll juz pic post and fill in along the way =D

17th - sth funny happened. lol. jonathan called for chat? XD talked alot of random stuff =X he's a nice person yo =D but he tends 2 call @ wrong time... and 1 funny extrat of convo:

J: lol... oh hey hey [random pop-out-of-nowhere topic] u got ex rite? =D so now u got boyfriend anot?
Me: O.O uhhh.... no...
J: oh... why never update? =D
Me: O.O!!! haiyoh... >_< boyfriends not like blogpost... dunnid 2 update 1 luh... >_<

lol... since when do we need 2 "UPDATE" wen we're dumped? XD
and de bf qtn is really random lol! the next moment he started singing "Sakura".

P.S. jonathan rawkz cuz he has the kirara-random-disease and the i-want-to-learn-jap disease! XD KRD + IWTLJD = Major Epic Random Syndrome! =DDD

19th - went out wif dad buy fluffy speakers! =DD finally!! =D dad did sth random... O.O!! he went 2 splurge on clothes on me! o.O!! and almost buy $60+++ converse shoes 4 me! omg wad is happening? o.o!!!

uhh anw here's the speakers =D

speakers in a box =D *open!*

kawaii na!!! =DDD

that's where u plug it in =D

=DD dear dear + squishy =D

the blue thingy 2 keep wires tidy =)

20th - GCA! GAMES CONVENTION ASIA LOL! but tt's not the main thing, the main thing is the confest =D
i didnt expect luh~ knife asked me out and go 2 suntec... lol! =X

u nidda register 2 go in, u noe =)

i was greeted by dis guy when i got there. Knife playing ds XD
Picto chat:
Knife: Kitty!
Knife: =D
Knife: hi!

sadako [zhen zhi] + kanda <33

L + Kanda! <3333333 [note: kanda holding death note, L pointing sword @ kanda <3 ]

bang! sadako dies! ...or does she? O.O!!!

...who killed me and put me in tv...? rawr! ...must... escape...

whootz im out

lolzx!

they say tt curiosity killed the cat...

seems like it applies 2 L as well XD

whootz! SG Cafe Yellow Car!

Why so serious? Lol!

GANG BANG!!! WHOOTZ!
note: knife is behind sadako... and sadako's legs are beneath his =X cough cough!

Kanda + Leenalee! =D

Joker + Lol-man!

some guy gave me stickers...o.o

Stickerman: hi, you want some stickers? ^_^
Me: O.O huh...?
Stickerman: yeah, stickers =) *shows me stickers*
Me: oh... what, one piece? O.o???
Stickerman: Nah, the whole thin. =D here, take it. makes good ammo =D *gives me stickers and goes away, smiling like he juz helped an old lady across the street*
Me: [thinking] wtf...? *stares @ stickers in her own hand*

kawaii ne? =D i noe, i think HE'S pretty today too!

WOAH! 'Ee Mee Noodle' monster! [+ revolver gun]

=D lol-man's mask + knife lol!

grp dance 1st song =D

grp dance 2nd song [blue guy in front kinda extra... suddenly jump in & scare me...]

dancey dancey 3rd song =)

SG CAFE YELLOW CAR =DDD

i guess tt's all folks... gaah im tired...

EDIT: due to some complains:

some pics have a watermark tt says SG cafe.
yeah... they're from http://www.sgcafe.com luh... [umm... duh?]
i cnt rmb where i took de pics from... so yeah... here's a list of the people [i think] that uploaded de pics [im not exactly sure]

uhhh... if i didnt put ur name here im sry... o.O!!

give me 10 reasons
why i should grieve over your death
then threaten me with your life.

16`09`08

2008-09-17T01:41:00.000+08:00

happy b'day...? wadever.

Thx J for the be-earlied b'day prezzie ytd~ loved it loads =)

took many pics of it... lol~

The labels

Orthographic ~~drawing~~ picture lol~

Earphones, bag [yes, it's in the box], extra ear buds, back of box, front of box

i swear, i've never used a more stylo pair of earphones in my life~

Thank you so much =)

actually all the pics taken ytd~ lol... =D

Btw... staying back at sch so late ytd...

do u noe tt the world is really beautiful...?

Taken during sunset [around there]... sun gleaming on the chairs... very beautiful...

the view of the field... sun setting... nice... shiny...

Today...
not feeling well...
lucky have jacket...

wore jacket despite burning sun during recess...
den left for upstairs wen i saw sth i shld never have laid my eyes on...

but its ok... today didnt start out well anyway...
as much as possible i immersed myself in music... Inuyasha, Atreyu, Dream Theater, MCR... everything i could think of...

silence is too overbearing... to much...
i cant stand the silence... it's too... noisy...
...
nvm...

...
so many regrets now... but no choice... i wanna say some stuff...

Person No. 1
Hello. im sorry. i didnt mean the things i said, and i never wanted to say those things to you. i know u would never read this, but my conscience would never allow me to go on without explaining why... even thou i cant bear to tell u. making urself go away is always better. i told u, im not perfect, and dont give me that crap about me being perfect. im not. but nevermind, it's over now. so thanks for all the things u've said. And... im sorry... but please, never forgive me.

Person No. 2
Hello. i miss you. i really do. im not lesbian or wad, but i just do. i miss your smile, i miss your laughter. i miss laughing with you. sigh. you are like the best thing that ever happened to me, and thanks for all those times we've spent together. u've made me really smile and laugh alot. u made me realise and learn alot of things. i want to see you back again. but no. everytime i talk to you, no matter what it is, you sound so pissed off. im not pissed at you, but u are pissed at me. but from wad i hear you think i am... what's going on? even i dont know... gosh... i need guidance...

Person No. 3
Thanks. For all the good times. thanks for being there. thanks for not turning away. and thanks for sacrificing ur sleep for me. i miss the old kitty too.. i want her to come back... and thanks for trying wif me... i promise i will work hard... i promise. not for myself, but for my mom, my dad, my friends... and u. u are really special, u noe? and despite all those times i fell for u, i wish we can be friends forever. maybe i've lost faith in love... maybe i havent... who knows? but thanks anyway~ u are really a great person =) thank you so, so, so much.

Person No. 4
Thanks. for the kind words. for your advice. for telling me stuff, for sharing wif me stuff. i really thank u for ur trust. really. and thanks for the be-earlied birthday present. it was really something i need, and now it' something that i bring with me everywhere. thank u so, so much.

Person No. 5
Heya. Thanks for everything. really. idk if u'll even read this, but hey, its ok. there are always archives=D thank u 4 e time and words. Thank you for trying to cheer me up when im downright suicidal. thank u so, so much.

Person No. 6
You! Thanks for being there! i miss you even as i type this out! Thank you for everything u've ever done to/for me. i really apreciate it. thanks o~

...

no time 2 finish post...

nvm...

bye people...

15`09`08

2008-09-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

Diary:

Whee~ Happy day! =D

lololololololx

accidents happen, no?

sry nazri! XD

lol idk if he noes it's me xD

oops oops uber high now
(7.50am nw) haha! 1st happy diary post! =D
mew~

Mew~

MEW~

ytd nite was a better nite 2!

Thx [anonymous] and [anonymous] for lending a listening ear! ^_^

I <3 u guys!
rock on! =D

ehh wait... thank you [anonymous] for spending time to talk 2 me even till the wee hours of the night while i did my dnt hw... much appreciated!

oh wait.. nazri juz complained. haha seems like he knows afterall~
uhh... after lagging for 15mins... lol!

Elements are horny!
LiCK
The Horny Adventures of Lithium Gas, Carbon & Potassium!

i love you. i dont love you. i love you. i dont love you. i love you. i dont love you. i love you. i dont love you. i love you. i dont love you. i love you. i dont love you.

02`09`08~13`09`08

2008-09-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

sorry for taking so long to update...

i HAVE been blogging...

but it's just that the posts are either too full of things tt shouldnt be said... or tt dey're too... dark...

so to protect the readers' innocent and happy little minds, i've decided to leave them in draft [or inside my diary, at least...]

and yes, i do keep a diary. if u are really tt KPO, or just very concerned abt my well-being, go ahead and ask me. i MIGHT consider lending u read my diary. i said, i MIGHT.

so yeah, here's the update:

02`09`08 ~ 03`09`08

class bbq! =)
it was fun. and it turned me around.

hee~

i had band in the morning lah~
so after band i had to take dad's car to go home~

go home liao... bathe... take own sweet time... haha!

around 8pm+++ or 9pm den reach the bbq area~ lol!

hmm~
all the beehoon and stuff was gone by the time i reached lol~
but it's ok! =D dere's still chicken wings and satay! =D

gary looking around... jasmine eating satay =)
TO OUR DEAR JASMINE: dis is called natural, not unglam. uhhh... juz dont click on the pic to enlarge it... =X

3J girls! haha i noe i look damn bitch. ignore that, k? lol!

me and boonyee. blackness overture lol!

3J`08! <333 [uhh... or at least... 19 of us... =X ]
yes yes i noe. 1/2 naked people... >.< thank you o' holy blue piece of cloth.

hmmm~

we played truth or double truth after taking the picture...

everyone sat around in a huge circle like kindergarten children on a field trip or some anger management class. XD

MANY MANY SECRETS FOUND OUT!!! O_O!!!
erina went to ask me for my size. lol!
[yes, im not gonna spell it out. im gonna use emoticons 2 replace it haha!]

hmmm~

after the TODT game... it was around 10.30pm.. chiaw min and some other ppl [e.g. samsul, shakir] had to go home... so yeah, we went to the bowling place to play lol!

while walking there erina had to pass this patch of grass full of frogs... lol... according 2 NPeh's blog she took 2 minutes haha XD

many of us didnt have socks so we went 2 share socks to take to the person so we can play bowling... lol!
jasmine's was too ostentatious so we couldnt use her's... T___T

so erina sent some ppl [including me] on a mission: to steal socks lying unnoticed on the seats/around the bowling alley! haha!

i found a pair, used it then lent them to boonyee to get shoes =3

i've took some pics of jasmine/boonyee/other people playing... but unfortunately dey're on jasmine's camera T___T

lol his number: 666 ~~Diablos~~ haha
[psst i noe i did badly at first... but i got a strike/spare at the stroke of midnight =) ]

lol kk let's skip to when all the rest gone home...

the ones who stayed:

Erina
Jasmine
Boon Yee
Me!
Guan Ming [thx 4 the free coffee!]
Nigel
Kenneth

we went to macs later... lol...

then ken, BY, GM, NPeh and erina went to rent bikes while me and JPoh stayed...
dey returned some time later cuz the shops are all closed! haha!

there's 5 people because i'm taking the picture and erina's... uhh... missing... idk where she went... toilet...?

i think dey were playing taiti? XD
later erina came back [i think] and money was used *cough cough!11*
[erina was eating GM's money like there was no tomorrow! lol!]

we all moved to another table later... =X went to take our stuff back when we saw some malay boys lurking around near our bags... O.O!!!

ken chased them off, i think...?
[haha thx! lol!]

a white motorbike outside macs. =) looks pretty, yeappiez? =D
[uhh... the hands and face is NPeh's/GM's reflection]

we all waited till 3am+++ when morning food was served... lol~
so while waiting, the group separated into 2 tables~
then it became 3 tables...
erina went to sit wif jasmine...
boonyee went to sit wif the boys~
i stayed at the original table to play & watch a professional playing Jasmine's DS =)

sooner or later, the 3.30am menu change came and people started 2 buy food to eat =)
i got a free hash brown! =D

then later after eating + chatting, people went to sleep one by one...
1st ken and BY...
then GM
then the rest luh~

i went to sneak off to the beach area =)
watched the stars...
watched the sky...
listened to the ocean...

and yes, i sat there on the concrete platform... i wasnt scared =)

why? because
1. it was around 4.30am...
2. i know nothing is there to harm me =)

i took some pics... the night sky was full of small stars... but i couldnt take the pics because it was too dark...

the morning sky... one side bright one side dark... =)

the morning coastline... u can see the sun slowly rising from the horizon... =)

i went to collect seashells wen i finished taking a vid of the sunrise... =X it was really cloudy so i couldnt see the sun come out... which saved me from blindness, i guess... o.O

hmm~

got a phone call from [anonymous]... asked me where i was... i said the beach... so [anonymous] told me tt everyone's leaving to return to the bbq area... so as i looked over my shoulder i saw ken, gm & by walking out of the alleyway. lol~

had to return 2 macs and found [anonymous] waiting wif the "sian -.- entertain me" look... haha~

thanks you whoever that helped pack my bag =) even thou something inside got crushed T___T

so we walked 2 de bbq area and cleared up abit... omg... rubbish was everywhere! tsk tsk pollution!

hmm~ cleared up... then walked back 2 marine parade...

when we came out of the tunnel, we left JPoh cuz she had to go home... it was 7.30am i think... o.O!!!

all went 2 toilet...
girls were faster than the boys [for once] cuz we only washed our leg lol!

then NPeh and GM came out 1st...
"Oh, kenneth got stomach ache"... lol!!!

so yeah... later ken got out we all went to take bus to pasir ris mrt...
we decided to go 2 bugis so we left ken @ pasir ris
but ken wanted 2 top up his ezlink card so his BFF went 2 accompany him...
which irritated erina a bit as he sashayed / sauntered towards us later lol~
[see i deserve 2 b in AG1! lol jkjk!]

@ pasir ris interchange... taking bus 12 to bugis =D ignore the 2 monkeys please =)

someone stole my shoe... so i took revenge... *shrug*

so well... we left erina on the bus when we reached Bugis cuz she had to go 4 cca >_<

so yeah... left 4 of us... GM, NPeh, BY & me... lol...

walk walk... tok tok... dey got caught gambling [i didnt gamble at all ytd & 2day] and so we were forced 2 leave lor...

hmmm~

BY took diff side mrt so left me, GM & Npeh... lol~

i think tt's de end le~
well, here's the video... happy watching lol~

Sunrise @ East Coast Park

i love watching the stars with mother nature

07`09`08

a maths tuition! =D thanks jonathan for helping me NOT fall asleep! lol!

here's a few pics XD

jonathan's pencil box LOL! enlarge the pic... u can see my childish doodles all over his paper! XD hahahahaha~

his tee~
Tree: hug me
person: no

awww... so sad... trees need tree-huggers yo~

lol~ read the story... very funny XD childish humour

i didnt noe tt dere's a vegan stall near eunos mrt! =DDD
[haha yeah i noe...im starting 2 get hooked on vegan food again~ makes me high =D ]

camwhoring at home... lol~

09`09`08

me & chandni camwhoring @ canteen during recess

KAPOW!!! i drew on my hand lol~ de stars r pretty, no?

10`09`08

shocked...? lol~

mrs poon came in2 de class during english, yeah?
i was packing my emaths file so i was kinda delayed... =X
den she suddenly wok 2 my table and gave me this...
Mrs Poon: "I dun noe y, wen i saw this i instantly thought of you. it's very nice, isn't it? it's something new. yes, when i saw it, i thought maybe i should get it for you. *smile*"

front and back

opened comb area and closed comb area

the mirror... is so 'clean' sia... O.O!!!

umm~ dis is de chewing gum winnie gave me =) thx yo~

11`09`08

lol change of seats today XD
Quote > [Mdm Halilah: Kenneth shut up. The main reason i decided to change seating arrangement is because of you and nigel! ]

alot of funny things happened wo~

1. hasif said "ni hao mah?" [how are you?] to dis chi cher juz before chi period started, and de cher said "lao shi hen hao, xie xie" [oh, cher is good. thx] absentmindedly. hasif asked again, but den de cher repeated tt again without NOTICING that it's a MALAY BOY talking 2 her! omgwtf! haha!

2. i witnessed ~~zhen hui~~ stacy frantically looking for si hui

3. oops! i juz rmb i hid ~~zhen hui's~~ stacy's whiteboard markers and didnt return it 2 him!

haha~

today had dnt practical after sch <33
so fun dnt-ing wif shimin wo!

xiao min go go go!

heehee!

not only that i stayed back wif her after i finished my bridge until ms seah chased us out of the class XD
oh, and i juz realised 3C got dis jap guy called HIRO! lol!

Hiro tatsumono...? i cnt rmb lol!
reminds me of Hiro Nakamura, from the show HEROS! lol... hero in katakana jap... is still hiro! lol! hahaha!

but wen i stayed back wif her i was playing wif my handphone~
some random word game tt everyone's so addicted to... lol~
for me its juz a random word game. i've played so many liaoz~
but nvm, juz 2 compete LOL!

also, during dnt lessons, got people smsing me haha
very hard 2 concentrate~ XD

and got dis nice nice person ask me when's my b'day =DDDDD
b'day prezzie he says! so nice yeah? XD

and cuz my b'day's so late [26 dec], he says will give advanced de =DDD omg im so happy!

^__________________^ mew~

here's a few pics from de dnt room ;D

3Jian works =D

MINE! =DDDDD it's cute and petite compared to shimin's large bridge yo!

jasmine & boonyee's doodles on the dnt board... some from uhh... long long ago when we were doing Mechanisms theme lol! JPoh doesnt have 2 ponytails yo~ it's BY's! XD [by was behind JPoh mah~]

haha after dnt momma & dad came 2 pick me up =)

lol den i went 2 eat pasta [vegan de] at PASTAMANNA in old airport road's hawker centre. lol~

Yummy Mushroom pasta in tomato sauce [+++ tomato pulp bits] ! =DDDD

12`09`08

lol seems like everyone's falling ill yo~
haha uber high today =DDD

me, JPoh, BY [???] & NPeh stayed back in ms seah's class to...
play handphone game =D lol!

nth much happened~

went home directly after sch!

ok luh, my dad fetched me =)
first time in so long yo! =DDD

hmm~ went to singpost 2 eat lunch =DDD

Tandori's [sp?] stall... idk wad's de entire stall name luh...
some malay food stall...
$3.50 for 1 plate of rice + 2 veges + 1 bowl of curry + 2 pieces of malay/indian crackers... idk... de 1 u dip in2 curry...

so after eating went 2 popular wif dad 2 get some supplies for sch =D
and b'day prezzie for my mum/mom.

lol look who's b'day is in september yo!

Momma & Mum... which 1 u think leh? lol!

hmmm~
after shopping...
reached home from sch before 3pm! 1st time in... idk how many years! lol!!!

13`09`08

lol stayed at home... turned my com into a 'vista com'...

k, not really... it's a XP comp with a Vista skin... =X

so yeah... my com looks uber pretty now luh~ =) will get u guys a screenshot someday, k? =)

uhh~

i still dun get wad's so addictive abt Text Twist Turbo... O.o

i forced myself to play till lvl 171... was so bored i went 2 sleep twice while playing... -.-

gosh... hand me a cup of coffee... -.-

k i guess dis is de end of de post, yeah? ciao~

❤
K & LC mew~
i promise you, with my life

05`09`08

2008-09-05T16:33:00.001+08:00

Diary:

Many i've confided in asks me, "How yould you tolerate this nonsense?"

True, I don't remember ever being more tolerant than this in my life. Ok, perhaps I had, but it was to the same person, so what's the diff?

I've got this really close fren who knows everything about me. It's as if she's been everywhere I have been and gone through everything I've gone through. Let's call her "Janice".

She cried for the the other day when she got to know about my suicide attempt. again. It really hurts me to know that se's been crying. Just the knowledge of tears shed for me alone hurts me more than anything in the world.

She asks me, many a times, afer what the monster made me become, how could i let it continue to devour me? The truth is, I owed it my life. Despite whatever that has gone wrong, despite whatever change there has been i me, despite everything, all I want is to enjoy peace.
Not just peace around me, but inner peace as well.

Honestly, I've asked myself

Do you remember? Whenever you start a conversation with a fren, you exchange "hi"s and "how are you"s. then you answer the default answer "im fine. You?"

Define the world "fine".

Am I really fine?

And most importantly, am I keeping my head?

Because there are so many people each day telling me this and that. It's scary. But then… I recognize them… But if you ask me anything about these people, I cant tell you.

Their looks, their words, their voice. I don't know anything.

Then I asked myself this…. Where did I hear all the things they told me from?

…

Or rather…

Did I even hear these things in the first place?

Am I going crazy???
what's going on???

24`08`08~01`09`08 Yo Ho Ho

2008-09-04T15:47:00.000+08:00

24`08`08

haha went out wif siliang & weiqing =DD

lol cute? XD hee~

supposed 2 celebrate sl's b'day. but wq's b'day was recently over. so yeah, i got both of them a gift =D

and as u can see, we're allwearing NEWBIE shirts. XD haha we all bought the shirts on de same day
it's really fun lah. shopping, den changing in2 whatever we buy. XD

haha. oh, and i got SL a book. =D wrote some lame stuff onto it. it's lyk... his life story from wad i noe/can guess... from his POV lah...

den for wq... got her a bracelet tt matches mine =D u'll see a pic of mine later. mine is black! hee~ her's will be a purple version of it. sine her blog's lavender-dreamx so i mite as well get her a purple coloured gift XD

oh, speaking of purple and black.
if u look closely...
SL & me are wearing black versions
WQ & SL are wearing cute versions
WQ & me are wearing female versions.

so yeah, it's all 3 interlinked. =D haha

but later i went 2 sentosa wif sl and all his frens saw and tot we're wearing...
...
...
couple clothes... -.-

doot u ppl man~

hmm~
actually meeting dem in outram...
den changed 2 city hall cuz i was late... =X

lol~

treated dem 2 lunch cuz i didnt eat lunch haha!
i had yosh i beef bowl & i treated dem 2 potato basket lol!
suddenly reminds me of de past wen wq asked me 2 read the book Fruit Basket... lol...

but well, tt day was fun =D
de jap ppl were really funny. or rather, it was funny trying 2 talk 2 dem. LOL!

here's my newbie shirt. lol! i lyk de sketchy one cuz i lyk 2 sketch anime drawings =)

after sentosa... got lost @ vivo so i went 2 eat... lol i didnt noe vivo got vegan food de teehee~

WEIQING I LOVE/MISS U GUYS SO MUCH I WISH I CAN GO OUT WIF U ALL AGAIN SOON =DDD

28`08`08

uhh~ some emo pic during eng lesson...? -.-
sry didnt noe wad i was writing LOl!

after english test LOL

29`08`08

after chers' day celeb haha...? [if u look closely the bottom left one looks abit like the one de day before? lol]
...
drawn after finding out i failed eng & overall. AND both maths AND combi humans. tt's 4 fails. yay me. -.-

haha im such a failure hor?
i practically laughed my ass off wen i got de paper. cuz

im so fucking dumb. haha
i cant believe i acutally PASSED something despite wad i had 2 go thru
well, i'm most prolly gonna get kicked from sch. omg. wad abt chels? wad abt zhe? wad abt hajar? T___T

gosh~ sry lah, i worry too much abt de ones i care abt... -.-

jasmine... cried...
i can understand lah...
i tried 2 talk abit... but den i really scared of girls crying...
cuz i dunno how 2 handle such situations...
so i juz went away and let erina & boonyee comfort her...
i feel really bad for tt... but i aint got a choice... i dun wanna make her cry more than she was...

...

after i left the sch... went out wif francis, putri, sandy. =)
sadly shimin nt here... or de grp wld be complete =)

we watched Wall-E... so cute =)
putri said at de end tt de movie abt propaganda...
abt how humans will end up if we continue doing dis kinda dumb stuff 2 earth...
so true man... T___T sigh...

oh~ wen sandy left for guitar lessons, francis, putri & i started walking around plaza sing... lol... den wen we ate at kfc, we saw dis nice lil lamp behind francis' head, so putri & i started trying 2 take pics of francis 'wearing' the 'lamp hat'... lol

see the lil idiot dodging XD

30`08`08

hmm~ had band today...
...
i told zhe rong i mite kena kick from sch...
...
she cried...
she told me it's not jus me...
it's also cuz of trombone... cuz of people lyk K and H and... other ppl...
...
i feel really hurt too...

i never expected my jrs to feel lyk dis for me...
zhe rong cried wen she heard abt me being kicked from sch...
esther got worried wen she heard abt my suicide attempt...

...

idk who i've told... perhaps dey've spread de news... yes, i have attempted suicide on 29th aug...
i was really... my mind was already set... i was focus... and i moved my feet very carefully to sit in a proper position on the window...
i let my mind wander... to think abt de past... to think of the present... to think of the future... but then... it turned black... and i noe tt he is telling me that there isnt a future. he, whose mark i have written over my skin repetitiously... ~~the beautiful star... encased within a ring... a burning ring... beautiful...~~

well... but then my dad pulled me... he did... he pulled me off the window sill and mom slapped me.

mom hugged me and cried after dad dragged me into my bedroom..
i wanted 2 tell dem im fine and tt dey didnt have 2 worry, but all i really could was to hold her...

...

...my life is spiraling downhill...

31`08`08

had tuition in the morning... till 1.30pm... went to eat lunch wif jonathan.. lol~
[thx! =DDD]
after tt went shopping wif mom... =) found a great necklace + a great handbag =DDD

tofu salad...? lol! eating [vegan food] wif mom

haha...
mom is fine wif me eating vegan wen i want to. =3 vegan food is really nice sometimes, u noe? XD

in the evening... after a toast of ice creams wif mom... bade goodbye... den went 2 pasir ris mrt... seems lyk all left... so i had 2 take cab... lol...

i noticed de cab driver abit... blur blur around $5.10.... $5.20... $5.30...
so here's de convo wif de uncle:

me: uhh... lost...?
unc: haha ya!
me: den we set the price at $5 first?
unc: ahh ok ok

haha de uncle kept driving in circles till i helped him wif the cab map... lol... XD the ending price is $8++++. but i paid $5 =DDD haha thank u mr cab driver =D

so well, dere's dis bbq lah... haha... mr azlan's b'day mah~

stuff bbqed:

hotdogs [on sticks]
chicken wings
sotongs & sting rays [in al foils]
GIANT PRAWNS O.O!!!

mr azlan trying 2 cut cake XD

haha mr azlan's cake. haha pretty yeah? =DDD delicious too! =DDD

chocolate fondue =DD

haha cnt rmb wad happened, but den ppl started leaving, and mr azlan told us ghost stories...
belinda made alot of coffee =D yum yum!
den so it's lyk some campfire ring... everyone gathered around the big table and listened 2 mr azlan telling scary stories while licking the chocolate off the chocolate fondue machine cuz belinda told him to... lol...
or rather, he POLISHED the chocolate fondue machine... haha...
many true scary stories =D so shiok listening!
owen suddenly said he wanted a batch outing at old changi hospital... lol~

so after the stories... mr azlan had 2 go home... T_T

den we all went 2 belinda's home theatre... =D

the ones who survived were:

bobbi
ee zeng
me
joyce
vernica
mingwei
owen
leslie
robert
kenneth
jet
jit xin

[order of sleeping place on couch, then off couch. lol]

the room tt had glass walls and a huge tv screen =DDD yeap. something lyk a "movie room"...
we had some movie marathon lah...

we watched [in chronological order]:

Blade Trinity (channel 5 - around 12am/1am)
The Grudge (2am-3.30am)
The Messenger (unfinished - because the subs juz suck)
28 Days Later (4am-6am)
Pirates of the Caribbean (6am-8am)
Troy (8- 10am)
~~Dead Doll (unfinished - because content sucked)~~
~~SAW III (1.30-3.30pm)~~

the gudge =D

the grudge was a very good movie. lol.

wen we put the disc in, many wanted 2 wait for ppl lyk bobbi, josha, etc....
so i stopped the movie at some point in the start. dis... umm... shining ball..? lol
den joshua put his hand in front of the screen and lyk "concentrated" on the ball...
lol it was fun humouring him by pressing the "next frame" button as the ball grew big... den i press "back" and it turned tiny again... lol...

the grudge was uber nice... so now i appreciate The Grudge 2 more... the time when i watched wif Shaun and Genevieve... lol...

after watching The Grudge we all went out for a lil 'breakfast'? lol...

@ belinda's kitchen =)

joyce/belinda offered me some pork. obviously i rejected it haha =)

wen everyone was done we went back 2 watch the messenger... but den de subs totally sucked and we found no meaning in the movie so we moved on to watch 28 Days Later.

ehem~ juz lyk i am legend...
but wif porn... T.T

i hate porn...
but strangely enuff, de footages didnt really affect me/turn me on...
i juz covered my eyes wif de pillow...

so well, we continued watching the movie...
all de way till de end...
de infected ppl...
omg... so I-Am-Legendish...

yeap?

hee~

camwhoring in belinda's/lifeng's toilet...

lol... deir house is huge lah...

the art in the bathroom... pretty yes? =) the shells are real. the sand is too.

chandeliers... lol... pretty, yes? =D

taken during lunch..

mmmm~
belinda's fruits taste good =D

after the lunch, we went 2 movie room again... lol...
~~removed dead doll disc and replace wif SAW III =DDD~~

watching a scary movie ~~SAW III [hongwan, the bio student, is scared? LOL]~~

at the bustop wen everyone's leaving.
lol i saw the forest behind... look at the pic... click on it... lol... u'll see sth interesting... look lyk alot of eyes, hor?

my accessories =)
[the necklace is a pentagram... lol... very very nice one]

lol...

overall, batch gathering rocked =D thanks for everyone who was there!

signing off =D

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2008-08-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

random post... telling u tt i've added pics in my previous post =)

and yes, i really do love percussion.
but actually, i must admit, i love my jrs too. maybe even more.

cuz i love chelsea
cuz i love zhe rong
and i love chen jing
and i love... all the others tt wun fit in2 dis 4 sentence line XD

but dere are people tt r nt smaller den me tt i love 2!

i love boonyee
i love jasmine
i love chandni
i love weiqing
i love meixin
i love natalie
i love sandy
i love putri
i love shimin

and i love the guys too!
for example...

umm...

like francis, jet, siliang, shaun...

and mr albino! =D cuz he always entertains me wen im bored and says sth lame!
[de sec 2 drama boy who's so frigging white =DD ]

ok now...

Dis is funny... found dis on shichun's blog =D

Funny! (Music: Opera #2)

this is the actual song. i posted it cuz it's damn cool.

Vitas - Opera #2

And a video from waihuin =) it's funny too! =D

Rob Paravonian's Pachelbel Rant at Penn State

haha

and u noe sth?

Vitas is SMEXY =D

lol i found dis pic on shichun's blog 2. cnt rmb wad i was doing wen he took de pic XD

haha bye ppl~ =)

[will update abt 24`08`08 in next post!]

"Why the hell am i doing?"

04`08`08~23`08`08

2008-08-26T21:36:00.001+08:00

04`08`08

i didnt write anything abt the percussion dinner cuz i want tt post 2 be specially on KL
so yeah, after kl, perc went 4 perc dinner =)

you know sth, perc? i love you guys. each and every one of u.
i may have been irritated wif some of u @ some point of time.
i may have been a bad girl... i may have done some wrong things...
but i still love you guys. no matter what =)

thanks for the few days in KL.
and i love u guys a hell lot.

esp the sec 1s =)

Thank you rashidah for being so nice =) u are huggable too!
Thank you wai huin for all the funny times, for humouring me and for all those "OH YEAH!" moments =)
Thank you hajar for your funky & contagious laughter! Go fagotts!
Thank you sharon for all the funny things that we can say about u!
Thank you hakim for humouring me when i "piang" you. =)
Thank you esther for being so sweet/nice & loyal 2 perc =)
Thank you huiying for being the sitting-down girl & for all the bicycle jokes we had during KL! Gong!
Thank you damian for being such a chicken little!
Thank you joel for being so funny~
Thank you ying zheng for being so funny as well! Oh yes, & for the funny anime times wen u were in sec 1!
Thank you kevin for being there when i was emo. =)
Thank you joyce for being there with me when i was the only girl in perc other than u
Thank you o wen for being such a great SL. the smack of chocolate cake on the face was worth it.
Thank you habib for shouting during london bridge if i overshot
Thank you robert for being funny.
Thank you rifat for all the laughter and interesting jokes you've come up with.
Thank you leslie for scolding me all those times and making me wake up =)
Thank you kamarul for pushing me when i was lagging behind.
Thank you yughan for not letting me quit band & for convincing me to stay
Thank you erfi for being so funny & all those funky moments in bassoon XD
Thank you all so much. =)

05`08`08~07`08`08

I didnt go to school. Mom told me if i wanted to stay at home,i have 2 cut myself off completely, so i listened. and true to my word, my computer and my phone was off.
so sorry to boonyee & jas who kept trying to reach me...

on the morning of the 7th, mrs goh called my parents and told me that i have 2 go back 2 school. i couldnt. i was not ready. i cant let myself see how much he has changed over the course of 4 days. if he could do this in 4 days, who knows what would he become in 6?

but i had to go nevertheless. to see mrs lim. i didnt go 4 lessons that day. just to class 2 take some stuff. i gave something 2 mrs goh that belongs to him that's in my locker. sorry i couldnt give it to u.

i hated myself for even thinking of going 2 class 2 bring home some stuff. because i saw sth horrible. disgusting. sickening. sigh. i was, as i guessed, not ready.
but i had 2 go 2 sch on friday. because if i didnt i would have to be marked for truancy. horrible school system, eh?

after going 2 school on thursday, mom brought me to bugis to breathe in some fresh air. i bought a new shirt from bugis street & i spent the night camwhoring =)
camwhoring never fails to cheer me up =)

standing up =)

acting cute? idk... O.o

acting cool? lol *focused expression*

suicidal...? lol...?

momma come take a pic wif me =D

hmmm~ i spy...

Muackz!

haha im such a bitch wen i wanna b

haha dis pic makes me look skinnier than i am [not photoshopped, jut angled]

emo shirts is the lurve <3333

08`08`08 [friday]

alot of ppl performing. not me. i cant go 4 band now. i need some anti-depressants.
thankfully there's putri. thank u. =) lesbians =DDD

owen/leslie got pissed cuz i didnt go 4 performance... hope they would have forgiven me... sigh...
i can just hope & wait... i guess...?

boonyee was very pretty on the 8th. but she volunteered to study wif me @ national library tt day. thank u so much =)

boonyee & sandy, 2 of my best friends.

BY & her hair =D

her cool dancing pants =)

09`08`08 [saturday]
thank u boonyee. for giving me ur time on nat day 2 coach me a maths =)
i really owe u alot, and i really wanna thank u so much. =)
haha

mew~
here's wad i ate after sending boonyee off =)

tissue prata rawkz =D

10`08`08 [sunday]

had tuition today. haha =D bryan is fun! we took his wallet then played wif it XD

11`08`08 [monday]

mew~
today is the make up holiday for nat day.
i cooked dinner. =) i did on the 10th too. but it was not as perfect. =)

wad i cooked on the 10th lol i noe, ugly rite! vry long nvr cook le mah~

my egg on the 11th. whole egg, not scrambled now =)
dere's mushroom + black fungus soup...
and 1 dish of abalone...

i guess... nth can take de place of vegan fish cakes in my head le.
why? cuz vegan fish cakes have the texture of abalone & doesnt cost as much.
yes, abalone is sweeter, but the fish cakes have their soya bean sweetness too =)

12`08`08[tues]~15`08`08 [friday]
Exam week. horrible.
but thankfully, boonyee went out 2 study wif me nearly daily [tues, wed, thurs]. =)
1 of de days, even shaun came along on thurs [kinda gd help] =)

friday was supposed 2 be (selected people of) 3J outing. but me and by nvr go. didnt wanna see wad i dun have to =)

sth i saw... The Black Parade Is Dead!

emo times...

Naruto Seaweed =)

17`08`08 [sunday]
had tuition =)

after tuition... went out wif knife...? lol... sort of... met up wif him after his work =) after tt went wif family for family dinner =)

Psst! KNIFE I WAN MY PICS!! RAWR!!!!

Myself.... when waitin 4 him XD

18`08`08 [monday]
Diary post:
"Today is a winding road. Tired. Confused. My mind is set. & determination drives me, but i dont know how much longer I can put up with this. I'm trying hard as possible. Do I have enough faith in myself to continue? Even i am not sure myself. But at least I tried. I've tried so hard. With every step I take, it causes me more exhausion. Its like lettting yourself drown into quicksand.. Then realising much later, you struggle to get out. You tug, you pull. If you dont move, you get sucked in. if you move, you get sucked in as well. Im tired. really tired. exhausted. but heck, who gives a damn? Sigh.... Its not the wisest decision I've made...but at least it's not the worst... Or is it...?

Trying to speed up the recovery is slow. painful even.
the difference between peeling a plaster slowly and peeling it in a swipe, while all your grisly scabs and dried blood stick to it.

What's wors/ people misunderstanding my intentions. people spoiling my plan.
2 fully years worth of friendship, broken because of 5 months?
i couldnt do it. i cant bear to let it go down the drain.

sometimes, i just wish that the whole world can turn back. to before it all started. before that fateful day. everyone wouldnt know except for us/me. we wold still be friends. we could still be friends. close friends, good friends, just like before.

sigh. a distant past or a distant future?
that depends on how hard i work now. lose myself, lose everything.

"i bleed it out,
digging deeper
just to throw it away"
Bleed it Out - Linkin Park

i dont want 2 c. i dont wanna look. i dont wanna remind myself of wad killed me. it wasnt him, nor was it me. it was them. them."

19`08`08 [tuesday]
Diary post:
"Guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.............. Gooooooooooooooooo...........

i can hear my holes & dreams gushing down the big water pipe.
wow, thanks alot sia.
damn, something's stuck the pipe.
oh, it's my entrails. haha. lets flush it all down! hahaha!

so fun man. this is such a great game! oh gosh, that hurts. the drain feels like some fucking blender.fuck. mashing me up like a potato. i lost my feet on the ground, my legs go numb and then my entrails get pulled, tearing at the 'seams'! hahaha! aint it fun. its just a matter of time beore this mutilated corpse dissapears from the face of the earth.

something interesting. perhaps crying myself to sleep was old, because i laughed myself to slumber. i dont know why. i just did. haha! i just rmb laughing. laughing till i cried, crying till i laughted. mom kept slapping me to wake me. she thinks i've been possessed or sth. But have i? aint got a clue here! haha!

damn! its so goddam tiring. gaaah. damn. someday, i'll stick my eyelids close permanently with duct tape."

dis is wad we did for dnt

had rehearsals for Singapore Fireworks Festival so took the bus to marina bay...

...emo...
i kena found out during de bus ride... shitz man.... joel u pro lor... -.-

20`08`08 [wednesday]
Cooking! =D mom & i made gyoza ^.^

21`08`08 [thursday]
Diary post:
"Damned math tet. Damned book reviews. Damned chinese compositions. Sigh~
didnt sleep a wink last nite. somehow, spending the night fully awake made me feel more refreshed this morning.
hmm~
feels like i've been refreshed. like a newborn Bella was. oh wel, ths awareness caused by the "never-ending-night" will wear off eventually... i guess...?
sigh~
hope this would get better as the day passes by... oh dear~ i need some sleep...
i can almost ASSURE you of my yawning & snoring 2 band. yes, venwhen fallen in. even when under that blinding sun. "

Ate vegetarian for dinner... lol...
tomato mushroom pasta + mushroom soup. =) bon appetite

22`08`08~23`08`08
tk performed @ floating platform.

mom likes taking my pics. so im putting dem here juz 4 fun.

whole band [im behind pillar]

taken after fall-out

me & rashidah

me & zhe rong =D

3 fav jrs! Chelsea, zhe rong & chen jing =D

haha a tribute 2 my fav MALE junior [de sec 1 boys arent really close 2 me =X ]
guess who. oh, and robert face behind... =X zoom in... =D

ok this is de end of the uber long post! to be continued =D
[will talk about wad happened on the 23th =D]
pssst!

23th aug 08 is a special date!

=DDDDD

HAPPY B'DAY BOONYEE =DDDD

stop waiting for me
& just forget.

Personality Disorder Test

2008-08-26T01:08:00.001+08:00

Personality Disorder Test

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

KLWMC - 01`08`08~04`08`08

2008-08-26T00:22:00.001+08:00

Disclaimer: anything written is correct to the time when I wrote it, which is most prolly on de day of occurrence, in my diary.

1^stAugust

Slept in coach for most of the trip. Wait, lets start from 6am in sch, k?

Well, talked 2 Chelsea/Chen Jing/Zhe Rong, etc
Really gotta thank dem…

u noe, 4 being with me, talking lyk dey dun noe a thing…
b cuz dese kinda stuff doesn't even concern them [for now] at least… and definitely not as much as it does to me anyway.

So yeap, hopeless me
Smsed him after fetching my luggage from the hall perc store den my baby from é Gym…

OMG I ❤ my baby can! =D

Hee~

Oh oh oh~
aiyah~

Stop hallucinating lah… a drum cant work out XD

Aiyoooohhhh~

Anw, dun wanna write abt you-know-who. No goodbyes, Fullstop. J

Slept thru é coach. Nxt 2 yughan… o.o
He's a nice person & he doesn't complain abt sitting wif me… XD
Wai Huin & Hajar get along well as… partners?
Joyce doesn't give Ying Zheng any trouble as well! Why? 2 words: Sleeping Beauty. Haha!

Well… most of my emoing moments on 1^st day was nxt 2 yug. Well, we didn't exactly miraculously turn in2 frens & chat & stuff… but well, he was nice enuff 2 let me be. Nice person =)

Hmm…
é coach stopped @ dis place ½ way…
umm… it's some kinda… mart?
It's ½ supermarket…
And it's ½ canteen/hawker centre…
And deres a mini-mama shop there… lol?

Zzz…

Some ppl tot it was lunch… cuz it was 11am @ tt tym…
So dey juz ordered lunch…
Lol~
I went shopping a bit…
Bought some rice crackers? XD
And umm… a box of Rocky?
And… a tube of Jackers? XD
And… lol…forgot le…
From de canteen area I got myself a Cappuccino waffle =D
[p.s. it tastes great!]

Lol… perc spent loads of time on de bus playing…
I woke up sometimes too~
Ms razi keeps scolding Robert 4 de poker cards XD
And when he keeps on playing, she keeps on confiscating. Hee~

It was some time until we got 2 de hotel~
Gaah… wen we walked in.. lol de lobby was small, so we didn't expect much.. but wen I opened my room… I was greeted wif de sight of… oh-my-___ness… it was a uber good room kayz!

Big & Spacious
Got doors to separate bedroom and rest of de suite
Got 2 sofas – 1 for 2 ppl and 1 for 1 person [sofas are foldable and can open =D ]
2 coffee tables
Moderately big tv =D
KITCHEN! – complete wif fridge, microwave, sink, cupboards [wif bowls/plates/tea cups/tea plates/glasses/spoons/forks/etc!], step dustbin, and a water boiler =D
Big bathroom – siao!! T.T lucky I mist up the mirror before anything. De mirror is uber big can! Ergh! Lol dey have dis little hose for ur chicken backsides XD
BIG BIG BED!
2 wadrobes: 1 at door 1 at bedroom section
Shoe rack + luggage table

Shiok rite? XD
Ok so we slacked abit… unpacked abit..
Den during 1.30pm Bernice went downstairs to take food… rice + chicken… ergh… 4got 2 tell her… T^T
Joel came over [for bern, duh] & both encouraged me 2 eat meat… T.T im scared… but well, took it anw… after much persuasion…
And juz as expected, my stomach revenged on me… Ouchh… I really shld have abstained from meat… T^T

We had rehearsal @ stad merdeka for ½ hr… went back 2 hotel… den most of us went 2 sleep again…
A lot dilly dallied b4 going 2 change 4 nite parade… basically tk band was NOWHERE near prepared nor knew how significant é parade was. Gawd. Most bands played beautiful songs + stuns?
We juz played Belphegor… den parade solo [drum solo]… den de marching beat… gawd….. [useless, pathetic???]
é Holland team ended deir parade after we did. Omg… marching bands… ON BICYCLES????????? Gawd! Gosh!
Anw, de ride back home hotel was… sleepy? XD

Apparently, yug, erfi & some ppl + ms razi stayed out & had some 'fun' tt nite.

Tt was de only nite bern spent sleeping in our room. Lol! Serious!

As usual, joel came over. Haha. She used de phone all nite + wrote cards. Hardworking =) I put de spare bedsheet over é bedroom mirror & slowly drifted off 2 sleep in é midst of reading princess diaries. Haha!

NEXT DAY! =D

2^nd August

Woke up in time… Ok, too early. Around… 4am?
Went back 2 sleep… was late 4 sectional breakfast. But was one of é EARLIEST. Lol perc people indeed. Nvr changed =)

Rashidah + ms razi shocked I eating salad, no meat ( lots of wonderful wonderful food. But I've learnt my lesson! T.T ). I had 2 explain é upset stomach thing 2 dem… Gosh.. T^T
Hmm…band pract after? Came back 2 hotel 4 lunch & didn't go back 2 pract as de booklet said so. Bong said we needed 2 SLEEP! Haha!
Lunch was…. UBER LATE! In é end mdm nora cancelled. She & chers went 2 buy BOXES [cardboard box] of MAGGIE & well… instant noodles lah…

Oh, I took é vegan one =) pics later!

Bern didn't feel lyk eating, so I went 4 sectional lunch in… LESLIE'S ROOM! 1^st was kamarul's… but 2 small 4 our HUGE section ( cuz + sec1s =) ]

é boys kept 'fooling around' in bed? Murderer is a good game? LOL. Rashidah gave me her soup. ALSO a change 4 me 2 rever back 2 meat? Haha. Curry noodles soup. Returned2 my suite @ 3.30pm.. changed… Went 2 belinda's room 2 do hair [most girls did]
LOTS OF INSIDE JOKES!

@ nite… sat beside Chelsea… after our perf 4 comp… drifted in & out of sleep? Best part of é comp? cup of coke EACH? =D [DANG! Our HUGE band is expensive! =D ]

Did a hell lot of sleeping… mostly I juz drifted in & out of sleep while Chelsea was joking around… oh, a lot of comments abt é Danish band! Well… mainly cuz of deir SHORT SHORT shirts… oh, & de drum major kena de worse… I hope none of them knows abt é snow queen in the chronicles of Narnia… o.o"

Aww… got dis thai band.. o.o uber big props! O.o!!! siao lor! Oh, and got many many
'BLUE' demns? XD de 'colour guards' [aka de prop ppl lah… or de ppl tt does de stuns/flags thingy… ] den suddenly… POOF!!! 'RED' DEVIL!!! Lol…. No visible drum major… so I KINDA concluded tt tt red guy's de drum major…? Heh~

Uber sad feeling tt nite… we got bronze… 76.9 marks… cnt rmb… in sg dis no. can get us a silver… but international level… a bronze…? But its ok, international leh! =D

[come on lah… avg age of participants is around 18-22 yrs old leh! ]

Not a nice feeling when I slept in de bus on de way back…

NEXT DAY!

3^rd August

Hmm…
Gaah…
Finals wo! >.<
Hmm~
In de morning… got late… why?
Cuz I forgot 2 set alarm… & wen I woke up cuz of ytd's alarm, Bernice was knocking on de door…
Why? Cuz our room de bell gt prob.
T.T & bern was uber late cuz of me… T_____T

Hmm… had breakfast in de coach.. :p
Habib also nvr eat breakfast, so he also got sth 2 eat… haha… ytd waihuin & leslie, now me… & dunno who… XD

Hmm… we pract abit… den went back 2 hotel 4 lunch…
=D I had vegan meal =D

Shiok lah! Vege + rice + curry [in a packet 2 pour over ur rice] + some Indian keropok [2 eat wif curry]… den I ate it inside de room.. Dis tym Bernice was inside de room… hmm~ Gabriel & shuwen & Joshua tan came over 2 wait 4 bernice… so after I eat finish, I went 2 play card game wif dem… at least, until bern finish den dey go 4 sectional lunch [@ 3pm lol!] den I stay in room & watch tv… haha… Took my own sweet time… den change & go 2 belinda room 4 de hair thingy. =D

Lol it was uber fun can! Pics shall be presented later in dis post 2 enhance surprise =D
[yes, cheong min =D ]

Later @ nite… de 2^nd time we perform @ competition, I tink it's better… perc was softer I guess… XD

Ahhh… perc started playing games… etc…
"You must KNOW how to play this game."
"Bang bang bang!"
Etc…

Record: Sharon took 1hr 40mins to understand the "you must know how to play this game" game… o.O

Genius, yeap? Mew~ k I shant be so mean =)

Hmm~ that nite… after we all went back 2 hotel… abt 1am+… nearly 2am le… I finished bathing at 3am and headed 2 owen's room… 2007? Sry cnt rmb… 200_ sth… cnt rmb de last no… T_T
Well, after tt kena chase by ms tan [mui mui] so we went down 2 ying zheng's room… den down 2 leslie's…? lol cnt rmb… so fun lah… in the end hajar and joyce went, so I also go [dowan 2 be 1 of de only girls arh] and den I went back 2 my room… gosh… whole bed 2 myself… so I opened the sofa and threw all de bedsheets on and watch tv till dunno how late… XD shiok man~

4^th August

I didn't wake up late today! =D
Bathed, changed… woooaaaahhhhh~
Percussion tee today [I think… o.o ] =D

Lol… Hancock & Domo =D

Hmm~

Picture Time!

taken on day 1... while leaving sg...

Chin Yug Han
XD perc messing around wif passports on de coach

rmb de supermart/food court place? yeap. oh, dis is de supermart part. and yes, we are looking @ our opening song, Rocky. =)
[psst. it's from de same company as Pocky.]

The Cappuccino waffle i had =D

some kind soul gave dis bubble gum2 me
[yughan i tink...?]

Welcome 2 my room! BIG RITE!!!! =DDDD
[taken from the door's coridoor]

The Kitchen =D

The Living Room + Bedroom [see, it's a pair of sliding doors... so can separate... ehem....

The TV

View of bedroom's wadrobe from the living room... =D

Whoo! Queen size bed, baby! =D

Me, being a camwhore XD this is the dressing table hiddden behind de wardrobe

2 vegan maggie mee
[see nigel, told u dere's such a thing as vegan cup noodles]

damien's backside complaining tt joel's flirting wif bernice

Rocky =D
[sry dey toking toking... so i sian and had nth better 2 do...]

Vegan potato chips

Rocky + Jacker... ehem!!!

Poor Cheong Min... in belinda's room doing hair =D

Both Esthers doing hair @ same time!

Are u happy esther? =D hee!

wad i did 2 de room on 4th day =D
the bed is naked & my sofa is whoooo~

the aircon remote control [stylo seh!] & light switches in bedroom area

my baby =DDDD MUACKZ MUACKZ I LOVE U!

the last day i think... departing tt tym saw de taxi stand...
yug han says it looks lyk de evolution thing...
den later he says it looks wrong... -.-

lol after sleeping in de same seat for so long, i finally realised wad my seat no. is... XD 'lucky' ?

Ok dis is de end of the kl post XD

Stress

2008-08-12T21:27:00.000+08:00

Stress

omg fuck u.

dis is... depressing.

on 1 side im trying 2 back away and hide myself from 1 person.
even thou it's uber hard.... im still trying...
im not talking 2 him cuz i noe wen i try 2 speak, de words eventually lead to shouting and anger. i dont like that.
[jasmine, why else i ask u 2 help me ask him?]

...

on the other side...
someone's trying to make me trust him.
i dont want to trust u.
im scared to.
i dont wanna fall 4 u like i did last tym.
and stop aiding this... terrible process.
please.
stop waiting 4 me.
im not worth ur youth.
im not worth ur time.
stop waiting 4 me.
please.
im tired. let me rest.
but not on your shoulder.

let me cry.
but not in your arms.

just... let me be.
and i noe it hurts wen u're reading this, but please.
PLEASE, give up on me.
it hurts me 2 see a fren lyk u get hurt cuz of me.
and plz, pull urself out before it's too late.
...

and im sorry.
i dont love u.
i cant love u.
and i really hope i never do.
i dont wanna put u thru de trauma of me.
i dont want that.
i juz want u as a fren... u get wad i mean?

thanks for the phonecall today...
u didnt do much, i noe, but at least u made those moments on de bus not so alone...

so thank u...

...

ok, sorry 4 dis random post..
i really needa get alot of stuff off my chest.
dunno if im emo or goth... angst? perhaps too much...

rest assured, kl trip+pics after common tests =)

bye people, i love u all.
thx 4 reading my blog all dese while, despite all the emo and suicidal words used.

"I can never accept your love,
because i know deep inside...
i can never love again.
and i cant bear to see u hurt cuz of me.
im sorry."

キララ の 世界 | Kirara No Sekai | Kirara's World

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Note of the Day: An unhappy kitty is not a healthy kitty! Mew~ T.T

IGNORED.

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Note To Self: 2.5 cups of rice = 15 small onigiri

ククク！御主人様は 私の です！！ ケケケ！！！^ω^

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16`11`08 ❤ Cooking with Mama xin ❤ Home made Japanese Food

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xiao min go go go!

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キララ　の　世界 | Kirara No Sekai | Kirara's World

seriously, one more fucking time...
i swear,
i will cut out your heart and lick the blood off... personally.

ククク！御主人様は　私の　です！！　ケケケ！！！^ω^

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